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CAMP EUPHORIA! PERMAI! SYF!

2008-06-14T17:23:00.003+08:00

`Saturday 14 june o8

family off to wedding in m'sia.
the only one left at home.
hah. the girl who can't get anything right.
4am in the morning. haha. sleeping late late late
at night. jacob's creek. OO never again.
this girl sucks.

SYF was cancelled.
blahblahblah. went to church for meeting.
then later come home did ppts and designs.
then went back and showed pauline.
blahblahblah.

project flashmob is in session! (:
okayy.... so it's done.
one thing that i can get at least half right in. hah.
oh well. then later after the screams and done paintings
and not knowing gordon was still in the room and yet wanting
to lock it and the pillow whacking and more screams.

went home. hah. so lor suo.
tabitha's dumb. ahaahahahahahaha
oh well. i just cant seem to do anything right.
hah. D:
blahblahblahblah. the rants coming from who no
one wanna hear from. hahahhahaa

went to do victim.
i screw up again. haix. D:
saw mr ong. blahblahblah.
i really suck. =.= =X

`Friday 13 june o8

went to church to "babysit".
leader's conference la. =X oh well.
even little kids are...........#####^^^^^^*****
words remain unspoken. hah.

then later ate lunch then had SYF.
Frog hunter. pffft. lol. hahaha mama panda
and crappy things. hah.
so many breaks in SYF as compared to normal. OO
WOW. lol. sorta slack but still fun. (:

komathi and her funniness.
the laughing and drills. avryl and her quesitons.
i still cant get the timing right as usual.
haix. oh well.

ate mac's after training.
kunfu panda kicks butt. lol. =X
walked home. blahblahblahblahblah.
today's never a good day. haix.
the girl that never was.

`Thursday 12 june o8

first exco meeting. OO
i dont think i deserve the position still.
i really dunno what's on my mind. haix.
god save me please. haix. oh well.

exco meetin missing so may many ppl.
oh well. then plan plan plan.
it sound fun yet not fun.
hah. well i just hope it turns out nicely.

meeting kept side tracking to permai.
JONATHAN & JORDY are coming! ((:
hah. oh well. after meeting went to eat prata.
with clarence joey abu and xin ning.

then later go home. blahblahblah.
then went for lessons.
blahblahblahblahblahblah.
then went home.
then later slacked? and do work.
and blahblahblahblahbalhablhabalha

`Wednesday 11 june o8

HAPPY BIRTHDAY XIN HAO!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ISSAC!!!

met wei liang in the morning.
then blahblahblah. had to cook lunch
for siblings and myself. blahblahblah.

had SYF training.
it got pushed forward and i didn't know!
so like rushed cooking
which the gas ran out halfway! =.=
oh well.

then later eat then zoom outta house go school.
was like the last two there? OO
hah. oh well. what do you expect?
chopsticks and rubber bands.

tricia avryl nicole liane and syf ppl! <3
i like syf. hah. OO surprise surprise.
talk talk talk.
random random random.

`Tuesday 10 june o8

day as usual.
blhablahblahlabha
tabitha is crap. hahahahahaha

went for lessons. but it was wrong day.
how smart right? lessons change liao.
i also dunno. hah. =.=
stupid me.

then nvr swim come out.
wanna go home then no key.
no one home. kena locked out.
then go eat lor. wait for dad.

then saw aunty siew ming and her husband.
no offence but it is true but i dunno how to tell her.
sometimes i feel the same too.
haix. oh well. complications complications.

finally dad home.
then blahblahblahblahbalhablahba
the anger hurt and lost of mind? hah.
O.O O.O O.O =X :X =X

`Monday 09 june o8

meeting at 9am.
reached on time. phew.
oh well. plan plan plan
then meet mr chiang.

end liao nvr wait. walked home
talk talk with hui xuan and abu.
blahblahblahblahblah.
dumb beef. hah. =X

played basketball. (:
21 to 20.
hah. oh well. chillax girl and guy.
dont :@ (: ?

`Thursday 05 june 2008 to Sunday 08 june 2008

08 june: HAPPY BIRTHDAY XIAO CHENG!!!
: HAPPY BIRTHDAY XIN NING!!!
07 june: HAPPY BIRTHDAY DINIE!!!

CAMP EUPHORIA!!!

group 5! power rangers!
yay for winning most enthu! (:
okok although i wasn't there for the last part.
still, GOOD JOB GROUP! it was fun being part of you! (:

okok. camped one day earlier.
first time i'm being a group leader like this.
i admit i was totally afraid. cause it's like err...how to lead devotion?
how to err. rar rar the group? cause i'm like same age and alll... oh well. =X

and it was embarassing... sorta? but it was wad i had to do. =.=
lol. oh well. haha ???ahhaha

it went sorta well i guess.
okok although there were the oh so silent and bad thoughts creeping in.
it was fun overall! but i missed the last part thanks to my parents. oh well.
they said service was great. haix wat's done cant be undone.

thursday:
basketball. chiong packing.
briefing then macs then school.

Friday:
went nic there. then blahblah.
then break into groups.

Group 5 (POWER RANGERS!) =
Micheal, Joey, Bessie, Jaired, Ernest, Joel Tang,
Joel Yeo, Zhi Mai and Dong Xuan.

then had ice breakers.
then lunched at pe porch.
blahblahblah. then water games.
shower. haha the garden bathers right sharon? ahahaha ?
then dinner. then DISC.
chats with joey and gets disturb. =.=
blahblahblah. supper then lights out.

Saturday:
wake up. DEVOTION! aiyomah!
haix. oh well. then had breakfast then later
HERITAGE TRAIL! good planning joel lim. :)
but wet weather. oh well.

but good job with the on hand quizes. (:
then later in the bus disturbing joel yeo.
lol. hilarious? hahah lol.
then lunch then afternoon games.
then shower then BBQ!

okok BBQ was good.
but again as always i was suanned all the way. =.=
oh well. LEMON. lol. but it was fun still.
air force. sotongs and all. =.= lol.

ahahah. then later got cheer competition.
lol. megatron! lol. =X ahahah
bb is famous for tao pok la can? =.= hahahaha oh well.
then later had chocolate fondue while watching facing the giants! x)

if we win we praise god, if we lose we still will praise him :)
the movie end like abt midnight.
then later had debrief again then went back.
lol. chatchatchat then later sleep.

^i still dunno wad i did to make u hate me. =.=
lol. just come up to me like tt. lol. oh well.

Sunday:
wake up.
devotion.
clear up.
evaluation.
then i had to go off thanks to parents. =.=

went to SMOU.
saw Mr K. heh. lol. tt bald man. =X jkjk
saw felix.
blahblahblah won. blahblahblah. it aint nth much.
went home.

`Wednesday 04 june o8

Weird dream last night.
Killer whales and all.
Lava monster.
And this guy. Thought dead but was alive.
Rubbish dump.
Bridge.
Many many people.
Fire games.
Hiding.

`Wednesday o4 June o8

Okayy. Woke up consistenly hour by hour.
Haix. Day was usual I guess?
Slept most of the day away. =X
Stupid headache and all. =.=
Hate it man.

The whole world’s spinning
While I’m dying. =x

`Friday 30 may 2oo8 to Tuesday o3 June 2oo8

o3 june: HAPPY BIRTHDAY YONG JIE!!!

PERMAI PLUS LEADERSHIP CAMP!

Offically back from Jakarta! (:
I miss permaians. =/
But over there I’m missing here.
The ironic fact. Haha =X

I learnt a lot from the camp.
And got to know people. (:
Haha. And see a different side to things.
Oh well. Haha.

Slept at like 2am today morning.
Then had chat in the apartment.
Then later all go and sleep.
Later woke up and like bathe and zoom down.

Ate local food at the market.
Haha jakarta’s market’s full of life. Haha

-the Jakarta accent.
-mangua dua.
-shopping
-wake up late bathe.
-breakfast at the market.

-sleep wake up abt 6am
-5bx. Breakfast
-workshop
-area cleaning.
-lunch together.
-speechless and such.
-banner and gifts.
-ate pizza hut.
-ice skating.
-thank you all the parents and jordy and iwan and all.
-bus. Taman angrek.
-debrief : confidence. Tone. More initiative. More responsible. More consistent. Don’t bottle up.

-5bx.
- nice koropoke. Lol.
-lunch everyone owns a business. OO
-jordy’s parents: meals.
-games
-campfire.

`Thursday 29 may o8

went school for final meeting.
sprayed the shirts and all.
then finalise everything and did the booklets.
then later went with eliza and joey to get bag.
didn'tbuy in the end. D: haix.

then went home rush to pack bag.
stupid me forgot thought tt we were leaving on sat.
how stupid and dumb can i get? hah. oh well.
then packed liao then sleep lor...
END.

this is the end of the reallyy stupid blur dumb girl
tabitha's long logn post of holiday.
i dont eveen think i make sense now. hah.
=.= oh well.

hahha super super long long post. =.=

2008-05-28T21:57:00.001+08:00

`Wednesday 28 may 2oo8

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YU TING!!!

Ahahaha. I’m so random now.
Lol. Mymind is blank.
Blahblahblahblahblah
Blehblehblehblehbleh.

Morning go school meeting.
Then later no lunch blahblah
Then syf training lor…
Lol.

Then go tm blahblahblah.
Then come home lor.
GET WELL SOON.
Ahahahhaa.

`Tuesday 27 may 2oo8

Lol. Today the same ole boring day.
Ahaha wake up then clear up lor… ahahah
I’m watching Hercules now. Lol. =X
Ahahah so bored la. Hahah

Anyway went for lessons
Omg it was changed for me! OO wah.
I feel so so so so bad. =X lol. =X
Blahblahblah. Lol. Wont go into much. Lol.

Then come online chat chat chat lor… ahaha
Blahblahblah. Lol. Ahahah so so so so bored now.
Lol.

`Monday 26 may 2oo8

HAPPY BIRTHDAY XUE JUN!!!

Today was plain boring.
Woke up. Packed room and then do work.
And watched tv… blahblahblah.

Sometimes I really hate myself.
Who am i? what am i? where do I belong?
It’s just so crap. Walking alone doesn’t help.
It lasts just a while.
I wanna go back to the bridge and camp there.
It’s so nice and peaceful.
So many things run through my mind.
I really shouldn’t be thinking so much.
But I really really can’t help it.
Chocolates cheer me up only but a while.
I need a everlasting cure or antidote to teach me save me.
I just got confirmed ytd.
Yes it’s true but it ain’t.
This spiritual journey I’m not sure.
I can’t even remember wad the bishop said. Haix.

Eeekk. I totally dislike bugs can?!
Lol. Stupid cockroach dropped in from above hse. =.=
Lol. Then crawl here crawl there!
Omg damn drama already. Lol. Wont say anymore.
Aahaha =X =X =X LOL!

`Sunday 25 May 2008

Today had confirmation. Was almost late. =X hah.
Anyway bishop ponniah was there. The gospel he preached was meaningful. Andand when it came to the confirming part. Know what? Lol. =X I can remember wad he say to the rest but not mine… lol. =.=

Anyway used com.
Did things blahblahblah.
Then later went out.
Came home bout 12? Dunno. Haha. =X
Late night can le.
Walking walking walking.
The new design at mac’s good.
I like it. haha =X
Oh and Indiana jones is a nice show. An oldie but it keeps coming back.
Hahahahahahahaha. I’m mad. Haix.
The façade which doesn’t work.
Ahahahah ahahaahah
I’m laughing. Haha.
D: D: D:

`Saturday 24 may 2oo8

Had to wake up at like 6.
Then later met nic at 630, then go pasir ris.
Thanks liane’s dad for fetching us. (:
If not for him me and nic would have like gotta take the 630 bus? =X
Lol. Anyway reached HQ around 720.

Blahblahblah.
Bus-ed to NCC camp for training.
Saw liyana and gwen walking.
Reached there then train blahblahblah.
So hot and warm. Can die.
But I enjoyed it somehow. Lol. =X
Saw desmond Theodore and dano they all too.

The random guy too. Lol. =X
So funny la can. But he’s nice. Hahah
Hurt my knee. Lol. Shouldn’t have dropped down.
Lol. Oh well. Not pain. Haha.
Me and liane we sorta hyper. Lol. =X ahahha during drill some more.
Lol.

OO know wad? Lynn’s the VP of her student council. Haha cool!
Ahaha =X
Anyway walked with nic avryl liane sarah lynn and another girl(sry dunno name =X ) to heartland for lunch.
Lunched then went home.
Mrt-ed back with lynn and nic.
Blahblahblah.

Went home then slacked. =X haha
Then do work then sleep.
Then chat then blahblahblah.
It’s boring to be me. Haha
Oh well. Wad do u expect?

`Friday 23 may 2oo8

Forum was a total mess. AH!
Tabitha’s so unorganised. =X
Sorry and thank you ms ng. =X
Haix. Haix. Haix. D: D: D:

Went over to primary sch.
Discussed. Blah blah then later MTP.
Run run run. Lol. =X
Then kena reprimanded. =X
See Tabitha is such a bad example. Haix.

Anyway cleared up blahblah.
Messed up.
Ran about.
Chatted.

Then later went to church.
Blahblah.
Went home.
Last to leave. Ha. =X

I’ve got nth more to say.
So blah-ed. Haix. Haha.

`Thurday 22 may 2oo8

Post exam activities.
Played games.
So messy.
Then break then games again.
Then recess.
Then games.
Then cheer.
Then end sch.

I’m screaming so much that my voice is getting
Low low low. Lol. It’s so manly. Lol. =X
Sorry it was so so so super unorganised. =X
Thanks to all who helped out.

Commendation service.
The bishop talked so long! =X
Hah. Then blahblahblah.
No appetite to eat wanted to puke.
I’m just so so so so so so so so tired. =X
And it’s only the beginning. =X

Haix. Then cam-whored. Blahblahblah.
Went for syf. =x
I so so so can’t walk in heels. Lol. =X
My court shoes are so super not my size. Haha.
The day was so hot until I like sweated my whole shirt can?
3 freaking layers. =X and my blazer was wet too. =X can u imagine tt.
Lol. ahahahahhahaa
Went home with aliff and nic.

`Wednesday 21 may 2oo8

Sports day.
Went school. blahblahblah.
Then later go stadium.
So freaking hot! Haix oh well.
Cut my wrists by accident. =X

But nvm small injury.
Can surivive. Lol.
ran around everywhere. Lol. =X
I’m so dumb. Haha throw javelin also can whack my own head. Lol. =X
Anyway after javelin run 4 X 100m. lol.
First time. =X ahahahaha

Blahblahblahblahblah.
Had a short cheer meeting.
Then blahblahblah.
Had lunch with mr chiang michelle xin ning and aliff.
Lol. Thanks mr chiang.

Went back for SCCS rehearsal.
Was super funny.
Meet jemima and amy.
Ohoh *inside story*
LOL! So funny. Right XN and aliff?
Lol. =X
Went back and then run. Lol. =x
The place was super cool la can. :D
I like air cons. Lol.

Then later went for SYF.
I’m so getting man voice. Lol.
Oh well.
Then after that went back to council.
Lol. =X picture placing. Blahblahblah.

Then meet had 3 meetings.
Went for 2. couldn’t make it for the other.
Oh well.
Argh. It’s such a bore and trouble.
I won’t go into detail. Hah. =X D:

Walked home with wei liang Xin Ning and aliff.
End day. Everyday’s just such a bore.
I can’t stand myself really.
I’m no link. Hahaahahahhahahahahhaa

`Tuesday 20 may 2oo8

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALIFF!!!

Today was just hectic.
Supposed to have the arts treats activities.
But had to miss it to do work. =.=
Oh well.

>> fast forwards >>

Blahblahblah.
After school had drill competition.
Haix. Err. Start already then march.
GB upper sec got 2nd. Yay for us. (:
GB lower sec got 3rd. yay for y’all too considering it was ur first time.
CD was overall champion.

Today was crap. Sorry ppl for ignoring y’all
And disappearing like tt.
I shouldn’t have acted tt way.
Sorry for making y’all worry.

It just all crashed on me.
I had to run away.
No faced.
I sucked, such a loser, me.
Haix. D: I don’t wanna talk about it.

Just leave me be.
Alone lil me.

`Monday 19 may 2oo8

VESAK DAY. Lol.
Ahaha after vesak day.
Wake up then blahblahblah.
Went down to play basketball. :D ahahaha
Basketball is fun.

Playplayplay until like so bored like tt. Ahaha
Ppl wait for us to use court.
So honoured seh. Lol. =X ahahaha
Then went home with wai chung. Lol.
=.= today is such a dumb day. Haix. Lol.

Went home blahblahblah.
Then later went to eat dinner.
Then went to Henderson bridge.
It’s so nicceee (: haaha

Walked the whole brigde alone. So fun. Haha
Then went home like err… morning. Haha =X
The place is nice. Haha I got bitten by an ant. =.=
LOL! Oh well who knows. Lol.

=X =X =X =X =X ahahahhaha =X =X =X =X =X

`Sunday 18 may 2oo8

Service. Blahblahblah
Then later err…. Do dunno wad.
Can’t remember le. Haha =X

`Saturday 17 may 2oo8

Omg. Like one full day of marching can?
So warm and tiring can?
From like 10am to 1pm
Had SYF training.
I’m timer. Hahahaha lol. =X

Then after that had lunch at macs.
Ahaha then later lunched liao.
Then go back for training again. Lol.
Ahahah lol. March again from like wad?
130pm to like 6pm.
Super long la can? And tiring.
And I keep messing up. =X haix.
Oh well. Haix. Haha. =XXX lol.

`Friday 16 may 2oo8

Had council rehearsal.
Blahblahblah
Then drill practice. From like 2pm to 6pm.
Can’t remember much la… lol. =X

`Thursday 15 may 2oo8

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HAI JING!!!

Came school early like 630am.
LOL! The whole day on my last batt.
Super low battery la can? Ahaha
Oh well ahahhha.

Practiced cheer blahblahblah.
Then run about.
Then later had Cheer competition auditions.

Then got gb training. From 2pm – 6pm.
Had meeting with ms lum and all also.
Super clash can? It’s tiring having to be
At so many places at once.

Haix. Oh well. Wad to do? Hahaha.
Busy busy busy. Ahahah lol.
Run run run. LOL!

`Wednesday 14 may 2oo8

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUM!!!

So luan la can? =.=
Had CCC meeting then later got cheer and GB.
Blahblahblah. Bloobloobloo. Blehblehbleh.
I’m bored………. LOL! =.=

Then had sports heats.
Super a lot of bugs la can?
Eeeeeeeekkkk. Ugrh. Lol. =X
Waited for the rest then had cheer practice.
Until like 730pm? OO ahahah

Was fun la ? ahaha lol. Oh well. Ahahah
I like our cheer. Hahaha OO =X lol.
Ahahahah. Okok ended. Lol.

I’m bloggin this at 1 in the morning. Ahahhaha
Tabitha’s so smart right? Lol. jkjk
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I need a scream team.
So many things running in and out my head.
Stress they say is getting to me but I think it ain’t.
A flower fading the sun rays draining.
This person’s soul is disappearing.
Haix.

free & easy? OO

2008-05-13T20:32:00.002+08:00

`Tuesday 13 may o8

played a short while of basketball.
got cx, wai chung, jy,qixi,ying hui,zhi hao and others.
know wad? i just found out wai chung lives in my block! OO
hahah. then after the short play went to school.

went with zhi hao, teng li, ming yi, andre, daryl and hai jing.
went hj's hse then daryl's place. then went back sch for rehearsal.
OO i have to say another speech. OO wah. =X
was long.

collect forms take shoes size blah blah.
went to send my dad off.
ate at T3 got fire alarm. OO
coffee was nice. blahblah
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because of my carelessness i get a red eye.
taking photo causes SOMEONE to whack me. =.= haha accidentally la...
i forget all about lessons and mrs sui's note.
then i end up hearing a fact that is sorta creeping me out. OO

THANK you wai chung. :)
~the teletubbies dance. lol.

`Monday 12 may o8

woke up.
went bedok resevoir run.
then later went sneha's house swim.
then later follow her go cut hair.
i saw xin hao. OO lol.

then went home.
short while later went down play.
then after tt went home.
then go out again.

ate at lighthouse.
then went mount faber walk walk.
try and find the henderson brigde.
got lost. blahblah. s'pore's nice at night. :D haha

but very scary to walk la. cause night time. haha
cool moves... blahblah. finally found it. then went home
try going there at 11 + at night. hahah =XX
reached home in the morning. AGAIN. hahah

`Sunday 11 may o8

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!!!

had service in the morn.
then later brought mum to lunch.
mother's day aint mother's day. lol. =XX
came home. did things blahblahblah

went for GDOP o8
blahblahblah.
followed the rest when they went KFC eat.
leisure park is cool. lol. =X

guess who i saw there! lol. didn't expect seh.
lol. was a surprise. haha bro was there.
as in same name as me one. lol.
anyway GDOP was ok.
ccr was unique so outstanding colour. lol. =X

then went out with family.
super late late late dinner. my father's treat to my mum.
lol. =XXXX then went home.
reached home late again. haha about 12 am plus i think? lol. =X

`Saturday 10 may o8

stay home saturday.
lol. boring day.
blahblahblah.
cant remember le. haha

`Friday o9 may o8

went to sch to meet mrs sui.
missed out on the karaoke.
blahblahblah.
did abit of gardening.

thanks lindy, hui xuan, ying ling. and those i left out.
for staying back to help do the thing. :D haha
then went home. played a short while of bb.
then went up again. cs whole day? haha =X

blahblahblahblahblah....

`Thursday o8 may o8

yea exams are offically over.
physics and emaths. haix.
emaths wad ok. physics. dont wanna talk abt it.
haix.
oh well.

`Wednesday o7 may o8

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WEI LIANG!!!

amaths and history paper.
i liked the history paper. haha =X
amaths... haix. =X

anyway tt's all i've gotta say. oh well. haha
bye.

ARGH!

2008-05-06T11:26:00.002+08:00

`Tuesday o6 may o8

is this rat year an emo yr or wad?
i keep gettin frustrated over almost everything.
everything aint going my way either.
it's so super frustrating.
home friends life.

so many questions so lil answers.
am i the cause of all this probs?
i'm at such a loss.
ppl keep taking advantage of me. i feel.
in everything. i dunno anything anymore.
anyway everything aint right.
i'm so dum i cant believe i did that.

today's paper is chem.
gonna have swimming later.
during chem i felt so sick. =.=
throat pain running nose and headache. =.=
so freaking irritating.

my whole mid years.
i'm so scared of the results.
i'm afraid of everything now.
wad to do?

and nothing ain't helping either.
ESAGMW. ESVVW.
argh. freaking computer wouldn't start up either.
lap top dead. =.= ok now it's working but it wasnt just now.
it took me 45+min to fix it.

wah. see i'm going crazy again. =.=
just ignore my madness. ha.ha.
gotta fetch sis soon.
GOD's yellow pages.
http://web2.airmail.net/dpelc/yellow/

`Monday o5 may o8

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CLARE!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY RAJI(rajakumari)!!!

had emaths and chinese
emaths was err... okay i guess.
chinese i understood. but phrasing was all badd again. =.=
oh wellies.

after school. back home
sometimes i just dread being the responsible one.
always being the one having to bring my sister.
while she bulllies me.
i feel so much like screaming. screaming my lungs out.
screaming the life out of me.
ha.

anyway went for dinner to celebrate birthday. haha
then came home lo. sian lor exams. haha
exams drain the life of me. haha
GET WELL SOON ppl.

the things out of the bag.
wah.
sorry dylan.
u were irritating me so much and i was in a bad mood.

`Sunday o4 may o8

slacked/studied for emaths.
lol. sorry sharon. haaha toilet bowl. =X
haha. xavier has a totally cool but expensive calculator.
haha. but sad la. i dunno how to work it. ahaha

had cell. lol. so much food?
ahaha
wah. big lollipops make my mouth hurt.
haha. chatted.
then blahblahblah.

study-~

`Saturday o3 may o8

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FANG YI JIE!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOEY WONG!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY AUNTY LISA!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JING YI!!!

boring old saturday.
study all day can die one leh. lol.
boring ole weekend.
END> =.=
ahahahaha

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ignore my crappiness and emoness?
it's my blog so i say this.
haha. ? i'm in such a weird situation?
hahahahahhahahahahha

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l'art de tabitha. LOL!

2008-05-02T14:04:00.006+08:00

`Friday o2 may 2oo8

ok so apparently i won. and i had to give another speech.
it just feels so wrong.
eliza's my friend and all..
haix... oh well.

people's been saying hi to me and all.
calling me president and all. sometimes even ppl i dunno.
it's weird. but oh well..... haix. haha.

anyway, today had POA and chinese paper 1.
i'm so gonna screw up for this mid years haix.
oh well. i've gotta try.

from today onwards. i've so gotta change.
and i mean it. haix....
life's such a bore. sec 3 life is blah.
emo's getting a grip of me.

get well soon people. (:
don't fall sick.
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thanks for being a friend. (:(:(:
you're really nice. i like talking to u.
anyway dont care too much about me.
and sorry for the troubles and all.....
すべてをありがとうパパイヤ。
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`Thursday o1 may 2oo8

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANGEENA!!!

LABOUR DAY.
lol. okok anyway today.
had bbq. went to uncle luis house to bbq.
go there talk talk eat eat cook cook.

then so boring. watched the eagles from his house.
so cool. haha and it's wing span's so big.
chilli's so old now. and so is spice but they still both loveable. :D
ahaha and there's still the fishes and bird. ahha.

adult chats while we sit at bbq pit = burnt fish.
ahaha. but the food overall was nice.
along with the refreshing lemon juice. haha
eh. it's nice an refreshing okay? ahahah

weather was nice but very warm.
haha so boring. played vice city GTA.
only got one controller. oh well.
went home. so bored. fell asleep.
but woke up soon enough. haha

chatted. stressed and everything.
crammed everything into my head.
hope i can get it right. slept LATE.
so tired.

okay i'm getting freaked out.
really really freaked out.
who am i? i dont know who i am anymore either.
haix. so many things running through my mind.

`Wednesday 3o april o8

lessons as usual.
was angry the whole recess. =.=
then physics remedial.
so lil' people went.
oh wellies.

btw did i mention zhi hao went "mad"
in the morning. haha from taking javier's shoe and putting them high up
to being santa claus and giving out all javier's things and all.. haha
andand eliza and i met mr ong and ms yue? (sry i dunno how to spell =X haha )
SCARY! WAH! OO OO OO woah.

then morning as usual back to running around the school. =.=
haha oh well.. lol. voted for most caring teacher. :D ahaha
had short meeting after tt.
then went home.

MR POH's leaving. wah.
haha mr poh's a fun teacher.
his lessons are enjoyable lor. haha
we'll miss him. hahaa anyway i know you won't read this
but none the less, good luck and god bless you in wadeva you do. :D
btw, thanks for the lollipop and extra lessons. haha xD

`Tuesday 29 april o8

day as usual.
met mr kwok. then blah blah.
gave speech to the whole school.
SCARY!
i super nervous la can?

andand assembly was sorta fun? haha.
nice performance. haha. lol. "heighd"
ok then had LC.
then come back again for speech.
done already then maths.

had NSW after maths. at chem lab 2. haha
wah the thing so not relavant to wad we learn la.
haha it's totally screwed already. haha

thanks ms Lum/MRS FU. ahaha
thanks for the concern and praying for me.
sorry didn't complete the thing. haha =X

`Monday 28 april o8

had eng and ss papers.
i think i'm really gonna screw this mids up.
how? i so so so so so gotta buck buck buck up.
met mr kwok.
then later buy bbt. then went home.
walked with dorry. :D haha long time no walk. haha =X
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have i got a spilt personality or wad?
i don't know. ahhhh. i hope not.
anyway i'm over and done with it. wad will happen i dunno.
i just know it's gonna be so so so so WEIRD.
WAH! WAH! WAH!
ohwell. anyway. thanks for everything and all.
i've got a long long way more to run.
it's a new challenge will i be up to it?
it's getting on my nerves.
this is like so many things in one.
nightmares and dreamscapes. ahaha
dunno wad to do.
buck up tabitha. you're so dumb and contradictive.
haix.

anyway pictures will be up at next post.

the papaya story.

2008-04-27T20:14:00.003+08:00

`Sunday 27 april o8

today is just blah.
studied abit of SS then go church.
crapped. and then went for service.
worshipped. bro gary preached.

camp euphoria!
ahahaa must go okay? it's gonna be fun. (: ahahah
cant wait. my holiday's gonna be so packed.
AHHHHHHH!

after service went home.
tt dumb han wen go scared me. =.=
!!! i thought wad seh. =.= ahahahhaa
lol. okok then home online then mug.

pictures are uploaded! xD finally. ahhaha
i hope i do well or at least pass all for my mid years.
i really dunno what to do anymore...everythings so jumbled up.
oh well. then had dinner. dad's back from bangkok. :))
then went dinner. blahblahblah. home!

JIA YOU for mids ppl. (: good bless y'all!

get well soon okay? u needa stay healthy.
and dont be sad okay? what's done cant be undone.
cheer up? dont so emo... smile :) ? sorry i couldn't help?
=XX

don't hurt urselves anymore.
nowadays so many ppl r emo and sad. haix.
rat year is such a emo-y year! wah... haix ahaha?
even for me it is emo. haha ? sians. T,T haha
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(a lame thing but yea...? ahahha)

The papaya story :
in a papaya there are many seeds.
they were taken out and all put in a field to grow.
this one seed took very long to grow and was very sad.
it's friends had all grown fruits and all... but it hadn't even grown.
but when it did. it grew up to be a very nice
big big juicy and sweet one. it's fruit was the best of all the crops.
when it was cut a star was seen in it. so u c? there's a hidden star in everyone.

dont give up when u fall down or r the last to grow okay?
there are other days. u can try ur best?
i dunno if u get the story but yea.
try ur best and dont give up. (:
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pictures. (:

2008-04-27T13:23:00.000+08:00

PICTURES POST!

-GB surprise farewell party for beloved sec 4s
(the super nice heart shape which even strangers stopped to take pics off)
(the dead snake and horses and the woodpecker who pecked a van. =.= ahahha)
(the musskiiper and my failed attempt of capturing a nice sea pic.)

-Learning Journey
(me and fang yi's randomness. my retarted faces. ahaha. )
(angelic geraldine. the ppl in the bus and all...)

-Qixi's surprise birthday party and her in skirt. haha

-flooded pool and park from mock test day.
(so flooded can? )

-lunch/study with fang yi and sneha.
(OO ahhaha. xD)

-pictures from before founder's day training.
(isabel courtney liane and me)

-family outting at botak jones kopishop.
(cousins madness and boredom)

-impressions 9.

-justea diff flavours. ahaha. father buy one... lol.

-Jo and Na's cakes. haha.
(chocolate and mangos. :D ahaha )

-the expensive one big box inside 4 boxes chocs.
($100 s'pore dollars no kidding! but it's nice la. ahhaha )

-bad weather, bookmarks and book.
(OTHERS! ahahha )

this r all the pics. sry so unorganized. ahahaha xP
mwaahahahaha enjoy. (:

cheer up okay? dont be sad. there'll be other chances.

2008-04-26T18:53:00.003+08:00

`Saturday 26 april o8

woke up.
mugged. packed and organised my oh-so-messy
file. ha. i think my house's a total mess cause of me. =X
i'm such a messy girl. haha

then went for baptism retreat.
lucky i went? ha. oh wellies.
worship pray and talked.
did it happen or was it just a dream?
^i saw a dead rat! OO

then after retreat. slacked in canteen.
i like talking you y'all. (:
you're fun talking to. (: haha.
waited for sis. then went home.

ahhh! midyrs on mon and i havent started studying!
i'm so irresponsible! =.= how could i !
haix.

ohoh and congrats on passing ur taekwondo test! (:
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hey dont be so sad okay?
there will be other chances. u aint noob. you're good.
and you'll shine when they come.
you can do it one. dont be discouraged or give up.
for now just dont think so much about okay?
jia you okay i believe u can do it!
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retarded face (LOL!) :

- d''' '''b
- o o
- U

thanks for running with me paya. (: | :)

2008-04-25T19:36:00.002+08:00

`Friday 25 april o8

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HONG KIAT!!!

exco was introduced to whole school.
nominees too. my heart was in my stomach even though
i wasnt speaking. imagine my speech?
how am i gonna pull through? haix. haha.

then after tt lessons as usual.
physics had test. i messed up as usual. =.=
i'm just so angry at myself. haix. y like tt?!
argh. anyways no PE! D:

oh wells. then recess played VB again. haha.
then amaths. emaths. then bring home all the books. +.+
went for chapel. then blazer fittings. blah blah blah.
then stayed back. studied. blahblahblah.

waited for jeremiah to come. so long. blahs~
kena scared by josehua. =.= haha.
ate sunflower seeds (: hahaa. it's nice ok. haha.
then finally came liao. charmaine and me and jin fai.
hahaha it's so cool how the events are all prepared b4 hand.
it goes to show tt god really know everything and has plans for us.
plans to prosper us and not to fail us.

>> fast fowards >>

then walked home....met wayne on the way.. haha.
walked home together. haha then come home.
then blahblahblah.

`Thursday 24 april o8

went school.
so pissed with myself can?
i just dunno wad to do with myself anymore.
i'm just so so angry so pissed.
so disappointed and sad. everything!

the only emotions i can feel now. haix.
like now a days i cant feel happy and all..
haix. i just dunno wad to do with me. myself.
ha. who am i? what am i? haix...

so many questions so lil' answers.
haix.....muscle pulls... haix.
anyway stayed back for physics remedial..
then shrit making then played VB....

joshua ling very joker seh. hahaa so funny
i laugh until stomach pain. lol. :X
then blah blah blah... went home.

`Wednesday 23 april o8

had AGM in the morning. then elected heads/vice heads.
then lessons as usual.
then physics remedial.
then meeting.

slacked. blahblahblah.
then go home.
was angry again. haix. then run to feel pain
run around park 3 or 4 rounds plus.
non stop except last round. haix.

thanks so much for running with me.
really thanks alot and sorry.
thanks so so so so so so much (:
THANK YOU! (:

after running felt better.
then came home rest. blahblah.
chatted on phone. online then
watch ghost show? blahblah. end.

`Tuesday 22 april o8

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GERALDINE PHUA!!!

onlined like until 1.30 am.
had ls exam. we all passed! xD
so happy. haha. the instructor so scary. but ok la.
hahahaa. test like from 6.30 to 9.30. super long la.
hahaha.

day was as usual. then tt's all... haha

`Monday 21 april o8

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KENNY!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIA JIAN!!!

kena suaned as usual... blahblahblah.
then stayed back to study.
saw dee. dee's fat but cute.
and a bitey hamster. ahahaha.

then played abit of captains ball cause too smelly all
wanna move so okay.
then walked home.
sorry cherie. ha.

home sweet home. haha

`Sunday 20 april o8

cell group.
guitar playing was bad today.
i was just so tired today.
no mood for anything.
home.
work.

`Saturday 19 april o8

farewell party.
i'll miss all y'all seniors!
all ur hyperness, crappyness.
crazy chats drills. smiles
and all!

i dunno how we're gonna be w/o y'all.
must come back and visit us ALOT okay? haha
we all miss you!

anyways, had a "surprise farewell party for sec 4s"
at pasir ris. pot luck for lunch and bbq for dinner.
good weather. :D then was fun. good food.
then saw horses snakes and all.

jolene.c is so funny. ahahha
inside story. hahaa :X
made a heart shape with candles.
teared and huggs everywhere.

so many ppl stopped to take a pic of the candle heart.
will upload pics soon. i promise. haha :X
anyway then went home.
train service terminated! WAH!

anyway thanks mum for sending us all back. :D
<3 ahahaha. today was a good day. haha
^ ever seen a woodpecker pecking a van window?
haha well, i have. ahahaha. LOL!

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pictures will be uploaded soon asap. ahaha
easier said than done. ha. :X

wanna say seniors we'll miss y'all so much!
you ppl rock my socks! i hope y'all enjoyed urselves.
and to those who didn't go although u didn't go, we still miss
you just as much! jia you for ur Os okay? :D

andand i just wanna say thank YOU for running with me again.
haha i feel so bad la... :X u didn't tell me. haha. oh wells.
thanks again. haha u're like always there when i'm down? =X ?

get well soon. and try not to emo so much. okay?
i cant emphasize cause i dont know wad u're going through
or wad's going through ur mind. but then still dont emo okay?
cheer up?

don't worry okay? all of u are able to do it.
u must believe in urselves and god.
put in ur best effort. dont give up okay? JIA YOU!
good luck for ur MYE! XD
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so many things running through my mind.
i just dunno anything anymore.
so contradicting.
who am i? i dont think i can do it.
i'm such a bad example. talk abt studies.
it aint tt good either. i'm failing so many things.
haix. i dont know wad i shld do.
and it seems i'm drifting away from the world.
from god. from friends. from everything.
i've so so so so so gotta buck up.
some on tabitha. buck up! u r such a loser-loner.
be responsible la! procastinating so much. =.=
who r my real friends? i'm so scared.
so emotionless. so i dunno wad.
haix. haix. y is everything changing so fast?
or is it tt i'm gonna go into a standstill.
well i hope i can. or at least i can stand at the top
of a building or something. or go to just a deserted beach
and just scream...screammmmmmmmmmm!

played VBtoday with paya and fangyi and andre and yan and joel.... so fun! xD

2008-04-18T19:50:00.002+08:00

`Friday 18 april o8

today was a longggggg day.
physics test i'm so gonna fail. D:
urgh. then pe played captains ball.
then CB we play until no ball passed.
then we play volleyball lor.

recess time we also play VB.
so funn. :D hahaha.
the balls i hit never go straight.
haha it either goes left or right. hahahah
oh well. was fun none the less. haha

then went back class. then do amaths.
emaths. blahblah.
chapel.
GB things. until 5+++pm.
then went home.
thanks yan lin tricia joey.c and glynis. :D

i hope all goes well tmr. :D
dont rain please! hahahaha =X
it's next week tuesday! ahhhhhh!
how now? exam next tuesday.
speech too! scary seh.
MYE also. wahh....

`Thursday 17 april o8

SORRY MADE Y'ALL WAIT. =X
sorry ppl. but had chapel so yea...
first time give debrief. omg.
super scary can?

lessons as usual.
so irritating.
imma sitting in the bully triangle. =.=
lol. and they wanna make it the bully rectangle.
=.= so suay.

`Wednesday 16 april o8

did the forum thingy. waited so long can?
did anouncement. scary seh.
thanks mandy and vanessa for waiting with me. :D hahaha
then went back to class.
lessons as usual again.
then skipped chinese for lunch b4 LJ.

LJ. went bishan.
REAcH family centre.
blahblahblah. was a quick LJ.
bus trip was cam whoring. lol. =X
i have distorted images. lol. =x

home sweet home. haha.

`Tuesday 15 april o8

lessons as usual.
told my answer.
had life saving course.
rained super heavily la can?
flooded seh.

then finally pool open.
630. then stopped msging blahblah.
then after tt swim laps.
3.5 laps then rain again. so kena chased outta pool.
lol. oh well. AHH. exam's next week!

then come home.
chat session with sze ern. thanks. :D i'll try. haha
cousins came. blahblahblah. oh and in the afternoon after sch
had gb meeting. hahah. plans plans plans.

`Monday 14 april o8

lessons as usual.
after sch meet mr kwok.
kena shocked seh.
i dont think i'm up to it.

y me? not her or him?
or anyone else?
i'm afraid. scared.
shocked. heart attack.
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pictures will all be in next post. haha :D
kor. nah dont say dont have lor. hahahaha :P

emo ness. thanks paya. (:

2008-04-13T18:26:00.003+08:00

`Sunday 13 april o8

firstly, THANK YOU paya. (:
really very thank you and sorry.
haha.

then back to today.
ok today was enrolment.
after a whole night of crap. haha
met nic then walked to sch with sis.

usher duty.
then was service-enrolment.
promoted. SIX yr. :D
dont be sad okay? cheer up. (:?

D.I.R.T team : hannah
miss D.I.R.T: bao hui, jolene.
XD

did serving. haha. the 5 of us. blahblahblah.
kena slapped in face seh. =.=
lol. then took lotsa lotsa photos.
hugs. suan time. then back to normal. haha

ahh... today so many ppl cry.
the sec 4s are leaving! :'(
wahhh...we'll miss you ppl.
i'll miss y'all!
must jia you for your Os and come back often okay?

after those scenes.
changed then went home.
blahblahblahs.
-underneath this smile

i wonder how many people know.
should i say? what will happen if it's found out?
even __ _____ knows! ahhhhhhhhh.
i hope i can just forget this.
it's best to remain this way i guess.
i hope ---- if only----

2008-04-12T21:17:00.002+08:00

<=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=>
this was a very long week.
a long tiring killer zombish week.
i was very tired. i AM tired.
god give me strength please.
i really need you.
it's like so hard to find any help.
i feel so taken advantaged off.
so ignored sometimes.
i'm so easily angered. so pissed this week.
even over the smallest thing.
i really need to change.
i'm really dying here.
change y heart. open my eyes.
let me see through ur eyes.
and not through mine.
i dont know who i am anymore.
help me save me.
tell me that im not home bymyself.
i need an output. i hope its not stress.
stagefrightkillsme.
i dont even know if i shld like him.
or whether i really like him.
i dont even know maybe is gratitude?
who knows. i dont even know myself.
gettting suaned almost everyday doesnt help either.
i gotta deal with critism. but it hurts. somehow.
help me i'm dying.

PHOTOS will be posted soon. haha

founder's day y'all.

2008-04-12T13:17:00.004+08:00

`Saturday 12 april o8

had a really weird dream. it was like in sch?
so vivid, so real. but it was a dream.
life's been really weird lately.
so fast paced. so quick. ever changing.

had to miss rehearsal for life saving exam.
know what? i got to tp only to find out that the
test has been postponed. =.= how "nice".
oh well, at least i can study more i guess? ha?
but i wasted my night studying. -.-

i feel so insulted.
"where? where? oh sry nvr c u"
at least their team leader noticed.
i say excuse me so loud also cannot hear. haha
oh well what's done cant be undone.

coping with criticisms.
haha then come home. blahblahblah.

`Friday 11 april o8

had half day.
then those involved in founder's day had to leave at 945.
haha and the volleyballers too. imagine the amount of ppl gone. haha
then rehearsal. then tried wet weather one also.
wah mr wee also suan me. =.=

oh well. after rehearsal went home.
do uniform then go back sch.
i was so tired can? i think got black clouds. ha.
food provided. uniform check then real thing.

ahhh. i think i messed up i ke-kenana lurus too fast. =.=
oh well. then the parade ended.
YEAH ALL OF US! GOOD JOB!
then debrief.
GB took many pics.

thanks sarun? haha.
then had to sit in for the hall programme
then dinner. chatted. then went home.
CONGRATS VB for getting 1st again. (:

by 1 point u know?
sad i didn't get to watch. haha
oh wellies. lol.
went home used com.
messaged alot. Oo
haha 50 plus i think =X

`Thursday 1o april o8

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHERYL!!!

the sianed day. 5 periods non stop of science.
i was really a zombie during physic can?
cause no lab at all. 3 periods straight of talking.
haha moments. quite an easy topic la. haha

then after tt chem onwards i kinda better le.
at least not so sleepy la. haha
then end sch. blah blah.
stayed back for meeting then went home.

lemon? haha

2008-04-09T22:54:00.002+08:00

`Wednesday o9 april o8

today morning run around 3 over times. haha
3 meetings u know. haha
oh well morning pt. haha then go class.

lessons as usual. blah blah blah.
screwed up big time in chinese and ss.
ARGH!
then physics remedial.

then training. rush rush rush. -.-' haix.
the pants drop guy =X omg. lol. no offence.
then i like so slack like tt. so ugghhh.
lol. then training ended.

see black spot moving about. (javier the stalker)
lol. jkjk la. went home with feline bought bbt.
then walked home.
blah blah raladopo.

lemon? lol.

`Tuesday o8 april o8

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PEARLYNA!!!

lessons as usual. except kena SUANED. =.=
AGAIN. thanks la huh. =.= released early.
full uniform rehearsal.
rained like HEAVILY. lol.

SORRY ming yi. SORRY gabriel.
I WAS LATE! SORRY MADE Y'ALL WAIT.
so ps i late like 20 mins. =.= ahhhh. lol.
then mrt-ed there. i was like counting the stops. =X
reacher liao find gab. then went into the concert hall.

good job han wen. (: songs and all were nice.
girl in front was "funny" haha.
then after concert mrt-ed back.
ate at eastlink then seperated.
and then bus-ed home.

`Monday o7 april o8

today is worst day.
kena suaned like mad. lol.
geraldine is horny.
lol. then jia jian is sick
zhi hao is just plain suaner.
felix is like genius act.
jaired is coal to flame. lol.

then felix call me mrs horny. =.=
and tt stupid zheng liang. call me ___ __
wad da hell. lol. kena suaned so much la.
then jia jian keep saying i kill him...........
blahs. blah. bla. bl. b.

then went home.
ever eaten a $8.40 PIECE of chocolate?
well i did. lol. my dad says i go hyper on chocs. =.=
and cant eat anymore. lol. =X
anyway he showed us a stupid video where we lmao-ed.
haha end here. :P
bye!

i wont worry my life away.
underlying causes self inflicting reasons.
i gotta try and shine.
should i ask or not? i don't know.

don't give up dude. (:

2008-04-06T19:07:00.005+08:00

`Sunday o6 April o8

^don't give up. god has already drawn out a plan for you.
plans to prosper you and not to fail you. cheer up yea?
i believe you can one.

missed confirmation class. :(
ha. then cell got changed to service and i didn't know.
oh wells.
lol. after service then sand birthday songs for jo and na.

sung liao then went home.
sometimes i wish i knew who i was.
invisible.

`Saturday o5 April o8

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JAVIER!!!

LC. woke up at like 630 + then prepared
then walked to interchange.
had LC the whole day.

from like 8am to 645pm.
LC got dragged a lil.
worship was good.
nice bands.

drill was slack. and sometimes the commands
were like pronounced blurly? no offence meant.
then food was ok. learnt quite a lot of things.
had fun la. enjoyed myself although was feeling sleepy
half the time. haha lack of sleep. ahahaha

laughter madness. haha
after LC went heartland to eat.
ate yosinoya. (dunno how u spell)
saw mrs fu (ms lum) and her husband. haha
after eat buy bbt then 81-ed to tampines.

bused back then online. haha
> sucess is the ability to go from one failure to another with no loss or enthusiasm.
> be positive.
> be focused.

`Friday o4 April o8

school as usual.
skipped recess for stall.
wasn't very hungry anyway.
haha ms choo is cool. ahahah
i like my seniors. haha

then after tt lessons as usual.
amaths mrs chan take then teach physics everyone
take notes man. haha OO
then maths was rather slacked too.

^lost a bet to zhi hao. =.= stupid.
then kena suaned the whole day. =.=

the impressions 9
was fun.
alfred talked to a stranger who gave him his namecard.
hahaa (laughing my head off while typing this. lol. )
sorry i made y'all wait.

then mrt-ed to tanjong pagar.
saw alot of ppl on the way there.
alfred keep suaning me =.=
concert was ok.
saw with xu jie joseph alfred zhi hao and qixi.
fang yi wore a dress. haha

concert interval was cam-whoring time.
lol. haha then ken looks so diff. in tie.
performance and mc's were nice? :DD
everyone wore like so nice. haha

after the thing ended we went to eat supper.
satays. haha thanks clarence qi xi and wei jie for the treat?
bumped into wei liang mandy bao hui they all there.

24 to the 3

2008-04-02T19:49:00.001+08:00

`Wednesday o2 april o8

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOVINA!!!

lessons as usual...
physics remedial...she gave us work then disappeared.
then stayed back to complete it.
blah blah blah

`Tuesday o1 april o8

day as usual... blah blah.
had founder's day training rehearsal.
after training then zoomed home take bag
and rushed to swimming. did real mtm to dummy =.=
alcoholed one. manikin like. i'm too slow. i needa brush up. =.=
cant make the rest fail. theory must so brush up.
lesson was good. blah blah. end. home.

`Monday 31 april o8

HAPPY BIRTHDAY EUGENE!!!

lessons as usual. blah bleh blow. haha
then sent grandparents off. the go tour la. ha

`Sunday 30 march o8

HAPPY BIRTHDAY QIXI!!!

went for family service.
service ended then went to meet qixi they all.
ate at LJS. got one totally rude small boy la. read jun xian's blog.
then after tt. took neoprints then walk here walk there.

then qixi dad drive us to her home.
SURPRISE! b'day party.
got alot of ppl there seh. haha.
played short game of bb. then slacked.
then kena suaned. =.=

yeah! alfred kena poured water on. obi-good!
hahaha. then thanks qixi mum & dad for the pizza.
then ppl left.
the rest sang karaoke. have a short video but then... ha.
bused then mrted home. kena suaned.

talk talk. then after tt. buy bbt then bused home.
had fun la overall. weird at first but then
better after a while. yea. haha

`Friday 28 march o8

lessons as usual.
had chapel.
then founder's day training.

`Wednesday 26 april o8

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALFRED!!!

had meeting.
went early. bought present for him.
=.= then gave him. ha the shirt trio wor. lol.
tt zhi hao lor. haha copy. jkjk

then meeting liao lessons as usual.
end sch. remedial.

tt's all for now. (:
bye!

conflicted irony.

2008-03-23T15:36:00.002+08:00

`Sunday 23 march o8

went for confirmation.
ended, then went to macs.
then go back for service.
easter sunday worssxx.
LOL!

camp's in june. :D
sounds like it's gonna be fun.
hahaha. OO.

anyway, today just seems weird.
it's like a war. but i really dunno.
i don't seem to connect anymore.
i feel so so... blah. it's the only word i can think of now.
blah.

anyway, went home.
i'm wishing that i could just have a personal
runaway place.
where i can dissappear to w/o
a sound and where no one can find me.

a place. a place.
somewhere like teriabithia. lol.
but it's all just a fairytale.

`Saturday 21 march o8

good friday was such an emo day.
wadeva. nvm it was nothing.
anyway thanks for the prayer
and concern.

i'm saying so many sorries now adays. =.=
i really dont know anything anymore.
i just need some help.
a listening ear.
but not everyone is trustable.
not everyone is free.
not everyone understands.
i don't wanna trouble people.
people are troubled as they are.
i dont know i give up.

crying ain't no better help.
it just makes you feel worst.
emo sucks. i wish....

THE ROOM:
In that place between wakefulness and dreams, I found myself in the room. There were no distinguishing features except for the one wall covered with small index card files. They were like the ones in libraries that list titles by author or subject in alphabetical order. But these files, which stretched from floor to ceiling and seemingly endless in either direction, had very different headings. As I drew near the wall of files, the first to catch my attention was one that read 'Girls I have liked.' I opened it and began flipping through the cards. I quickly shut it, shocked to realize that I recognized the names written on each one. And then without being told, I knew exactly where I was.

This lifeless room with its small files was a crude catalog system for my life. Here were written the actions of my every moment, big and small, in a detail my memory couldn't match. A sense of wonder and curiosity, coupled with horror, stirred within me as I began randomly opening files and exploring their content. Some brought joy and sweet memories; others a sense of shame and regret so intense that I would look over my shoulder to see if anyone was watching.

A file named 'Friends' was next to one marked 'Friends I have betrayed.' The titles ranged from the mundane to the outright weird 'Books I Have Read,' 'Lies I Have Told,' 'Comfort I have Given,' 'Jokes I Have Laughed at .' Some were almost hilarious in their exactness: 'Things I've yelled at my brothers.' Others I couldn't laugh at: 'Things I Have Done in My Anger', 'Things I Have Muttered Under My Breath at My Parents.' I never ceased to be surprised by the contents.

Often there were many more cards than I expected. Sometimes fewer than I hoped. I was overwhelmed by the sheer volume of the life I had lived. Could it be possible that I had the time in my years to fill each of these thousands or even millions of cards? But each card confirmed this truth. Each was written in my own handwriting. Each signed with my signature.

When I pulled out the file marked 'TV Shows I have watched', I realized the files grew to contain their contents. The cards were packed tightly, and yet after two or three yards, I hadn't found the end of the file. I shut it, shamed, not so much by the quality of shows but more by the vast time I knew that file represented.

When I came to a file marked 'Lustful Thoughts,' I felt a chill run through my body. I pulled the file out only an inch, not willing to test its size and drew out a card. I shuddered at its detailed content.

I felt sick to think that such a moment had been recorded. An almost animal rage broke on me. One thought dominated my mind: No one must ever see these cards! No one must ever see this room! I have to destroy them!' In insane frenzy I yanked the file out. Its size didn't matter now. I had to empty it and burn the cards. But as I took it at one end and began pounding it on the floor, I could not dislodge a single card. I became desperate and pulled out a card, only to find it as strong as steel when I tried to tear it.

Defeated and utterly helpless, I returned the file to its slot. Leaning my forehead against the wall, I let out a long, self-pitying sigh.

And then I saw it.. The title bore 'People I Have Shared the Gospel With.' The handle was brighter than those around it,seemed newer, almost unused. I pulled on its handle and a small box not more than three inches long fell into my hands. I could count the cards it contained on one hand.

And then the tears came. I began to weep. Sobs so deep that they hurt. They started in my stomach and shook through me. I fell on my knees and cried. I cried out of shame, from the overwhelming shame of it all. The rows of file shelves swirled in my tear-filled eyes. No one must ever, ever know of this room. I must lock it up and hide the key. But then as I pushed away the tears, I saw Him.

No, please not Him. Not here. Oh, anyone but Jesus. I watched helplessly as He began to open the files and read the cards. I couldn't bear to watch His response. And in the moments I could bring myself to look at His face, I saw a sorrow deeper than my own.

He seemed to intuitively go to the worst boxes. Why did He have to read every one? Finally He turned and looked at me from across the room. He looked at me with pity in His eyes. But this was a pity that didn't anger me. I dropped my head, covered my face with my hands and began to cry again. He walked over and put His arm around me. He could have said so many things. But He didn't say a word. He just cried with me.

Then He got up and walked back to the wall of files. Starting at one end of the room, He took out a file and, one by one, began to sign His name over mine on each card. 'No!' I shouted rushing to Him. All I could find to say was 'No, no,' as I pulled the card from Him. His name shouldn't be on these cards. But there it was, written in red so rich, so dark, so alive. The name of Jesus covered mine. It was written with His blood. He gently took the card back. He smiled a sad smile and began to sign the cards. I don't think I'll ever understand how He did it so quickly, but the next instant it seemed I heard Him close the last file and walk back to my side.

He placed His hand on my shoulder and said, 'It is finished.' I stood up, and He led me out of the room. There was no lock on its door. There were still cards to be written.

'I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.'-Phil. 4:13 'For God so loved the world that He gave His only son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life.'

FENCING!

2008-03-21T15:26:00.002+08:00

`Friday 21 march o8

today had good friday service.
=.= cause of ming yi.
now instead of bubble tea, i'm called teletubby. -.-
LOL!

anyway, after service had buffet lunch,
then went home.
realised i forgot to copy the board for pub thing
then went back sch to do it again. =.=
so retarded. haha leave and then come back. LOL!

went home.
saw ming jie cycling.
blah blah saw the focus cell ppl at coffeeshop.

`Thursday 2o march o8

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AH-PO!

today my grandmother's birthday. =))
lol. anyway today early morning went school
then go class do work.

class was boring.
eng lesson was FUN-NEH.
lol. there's felix and zhi hao's chair fight.
jia jian's gayness.
yang heng's lala-land
joseph's bell wake.
javier's answers
and mr law's pass things.
and so on.

hahaha. then after sch.
had founder's day training.
new format.
is cool. :D aahahha
but GB ain't really doing much?
hah?

ended early.
then slacked abit in canteen.
then went home.

`Wednesday 19 march o8

FENCING!
lessons as usual.
then was like super sleepy in class.
LOL.
seats were changed.
"blow wind blow" =.= LOL!

my seat's weird. soso weird.
haha

anyway, after ss.
had to rush down for fencing.
the bus was here already.
and know what? our sch wad flooded!
ahahaha. cool man!

anyway. went to bukit timah to fence!
fencing is COOL and FUN!
on-guard! au-vue-preir?
WEE! ALI!

then we start fencing. hahaha
damn cool!
i wanna go again.
hahaha
then after the class went back to
school. then home.

had fun today. :D

`Tuesday 18 March o8

supposely supposed to have
LS test. then got postponed.
haix. LOL!
i'm up to my neck with work.
lack of sleep. =.=

AAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

2008-03-17T19:27:00.003+08:00

`Sunday 16 march o8

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOHNNEO!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BIBI ANA!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MING YOU!!!

woke up late.
then rushed to confirmation.
the wheel of christ.
then after confirmation went down canteen and slack with doryy.
while jas and sharon and na and cheryl all went 7-11.

then chatted then donations.
then go up for cell.
then got our art gallery. :D ahaaha
then got pauline's LOL ness.
ahaahhaa

then after that went down.
then went home.
bumped into seeker's cell ppl.
then bought lunch. then went home
ate then left for pasir ris library.
to do chem project

then library full went downtown subway to do.
then did until like 8pm. then went arcade a while
basketball! :D
LOL! then after ttt walked.
then went home.
SORRY zheng liang. lol. the mrt thing. really sorry.

did work. =.=
chionged amaths and in the end nvr collect. =.= LOL!

`Monday 17 March o8

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WALTON!!!

school as usual.
bag like got gold.
stayed back to do chem project.
ate yosinoya. dunno how to spell.
lol.

saw wilson. hahah lol.
did proj at library in the end.
then went home. haha
test course training! ahhhh.

^thanks. :D do not worry. go to him and he will give u rest. :D
i wanna let him know but i just cant bear to.
contradicting.

TIRED ZOMBIE

2008-03-15T02:52:00.002+08:00

`Saturday 15 march o8

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SELECIA!!! =))

today is slack day.
woke up late imma such a pig la!
omg liazard drop down from my ceiling.
gave me a shock la.
suddenly *SPLAT*
i thought wad seh.
anyway did project until early morning.

then went to GB.
was so tired. slept at like 4+, 5 am.
then woke up like 7am.
then do things then go meet nicole.
then go sch then open church.
GB as usual. then ended way early cause Ms. lum wedding. :D

then quickly did GB board.
EH! now everyone's gonna know! =X
then done already. rushed home.
rush rush rush. then zoom go shaw centre.
sister's b'day thing.
watched spiderwick chronicles.
quick nice. reminds me a bit of brigde to terabithia.
haha

^saw two of the camp instructors there?
kelvin and another girl instructor i guess. haha
and then saw an actor and actress. hahah

then after that MRTed back home.
had to wait for my cousin and bro. must bring them with me. =.=
so irritating. the whole journey also suan me.
STUPID.
and how dumb can i get? i thought i saw city hall then i told the two
say we missed a stop get off here. then in the end, city hall is the coming
stop and not the last one. =.=

then cooking maggi mee also. =.= aiyo don't wanna talkk bout it already la.
LOL!
then after that chiong hmwk and project again.
then sleep.

tt's all for today. :D
BYE!

ART ATTACK! zhi hao +cheng xiang party.

2008-03-14T00:29:00.004+08:00

s`Thursday 13 march o8

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZHI HAO!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHENG XIANG!!!

today rained like crazy.
tampines park here was practically "flooded".
had birthday outing ma. but raining so wad to do?
walk through that flood. =.=

got my whole shoe wet. =.= so dumb
hahah oh well. met up with zhi hao,ming yi, alfred, jun yuan,
cheng xiang, darren and qixi.
watched "HORTON". haha
then after that went to play basketball.

played in the rain! ahahah
played at outdoor bb court.
haha so empty and first time i play in such heavy rain.
but all in all, althought weird, had fun la. =D haha

^thanks alfred for your help. :D hahaha
hope they liked the presents. heh =X
qixi is horton. O.O haha
a person's a person no matter how small.

`Wednesday 12 march o8

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LIANE!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY AZLAN!!!

`Tuesday 11 march o8

went to sch to help sec 2s with their drill.
then did drill. saw focus ppl.
had their jam sessions haha.
then after that heavy rain. =.=

oh well then. haha
walked home. blahblahblah.
saw ming yi and vincent.
then take same lift. haha vincent ask ming yi send him home
ahahahahha! so gay. =.= LOL! i'm lame hahaha.

^thanks tricia for coming down to help. :D

`Monday 10 march o8

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAVID!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ROYSTON!!!

had physics remedial. haix.
met (NI-HA!) in the morn to wait for DI-DAH.
hahahaha
had lesson then take test blahblahblah.
then after remedial had lunch with ni-ha and di-dah
haha lol. no la is sneha and jedidah.
hahaha. lol. LAME. lol.
anyway after tt the go home lor.

ps. thanks for helping me pass the paper. :D

`Sunday o9 march o8

ART ATTACK big day.

had confirmation class.
then service. BB boys joined in.
so many ppl. wah... hahaha
then pastor fuman preached.
again had EXCO work.
i screwed up again. =.= stupid stupid stupid
thanks sharon. :D
then after tt had lunch at mac.

ART ATTACK.
prepared the things then started work.
wah. cleaning up the mess. and all.
aiyo dont wanna say liao la. hahah
and ming yi go tell his bro i tabithaby.
=.= MING GUI! then u know.
walked home.

^sorry glen shout at u ah. psps.

`Saturday o8 march o8

GB as usual.
then end.

`Friday o7 march o8

MTP.
i failed 4 subs. :(
played a sour game of bball.
=.= so disappointing.
BUCK UP!

sent david off.
then went home.
we'll all miss u david. :D
take care in melbourne. :D

`Thursday o6 march o8

many sec 3s didn't come sch today.
all HA instructions given. =.=
packed tables and cleared classroom.
end sch.

SEC 3 CAMP! SEE SAW SEH!

2008-03-05T18:13:00.002+08:00

`Monday o3 march o8 - Wednesday o5 march o8

SEC 3 CAMP at St. John's island!

it's a totally memorable camp. we've got through much together and i'm sure
we will get along better after this camp too. i'm sure 3H will nvr forget Treviz and Leisha.
their super hyperness and their encouragements and help.

caterpillar-ing up the slope together, trying our best getting blisters and moving towards
our goal. ok although we didn't go al the way, we made it 3/4 way! yes we had to stop because
of our duty but so what? we all worked together as one and completed the thing. GREAT JOB people!

the vertical challenge for 7 mins. ok i know we all were suffering. sorry i could balance properly and kept slipping. but thanks girls for the support care and all. the buddha claps and push ups.

then dinner duty. go see saw seh! we carried all the boxes up. but we had fun while waiting for the boat to come right? haha the pins and all. and "surfing" hahaa. ginuea pig army and all.
haha.

then kidnapp, us running around the island doing the activities to find the right key to save daryl. then me getting "lost" inn the midst of ppl and looking everywhere else except at where daryl is held. =.= c how stupid i can get? LOL!

the campfire and cheers and all. XI SHUA SHUA! SAT! HUNGRY VERY! OI! OOOo ah ahah! haha all so united shouts and cheers. and the very funny dances. treviz dancing and more.
mr kwok's lagging dances and all.

the night chats we had while sleeping on the ever so sandy beds and all. haha the changing of voices and picture takings and bombings and chats. haha. xiao ming ming or is it xiao xiao ming?
haha all these wonderful memories wont be forgotten.

so many words so little time to type it all out. so i'll just end here. haha bye!

^i'm missing camp already. i like camps especially ones like this. i miss the insturctors craziness and their always hyperness. the encouragement and loads of help. the songs and cheers. the chats.

SEE SAW SEH! i know aneh. ku chi meh meh. meh meh neh neh! SEH! ahahahahaha

art attack trial run!

2008-03-02T23:53:00.000+08:00

`Sunday o2 march o8

had conformation class. Jeremiah's the teacher.
then had cell group. ate expired chocolates. O.O
sang b'day song for joanna. then had lunch together at A-star
then went back for exco art attack trial run.

had fun. weiming,jon and kent went into _____________.
hahaha then weiming made sharon scream, which scared me too.
haha and i screamed. and kent went all white. LOL!
then painted a bit.

didn't do much actually. then chatted with nic.
wei liang very tired and wei ming scared sharon again.
hahahaha! then walked home in the rain.
ART ATTACK TRIAL outcome was GREAT. xD

`Saturday o1 march o8

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOANNA!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MRS KOH-CHIA!!!

had GB in the morn. damn ps la!
i totally forgotten all my drills for awards. then had squad duty.
went to sch with nicole and aliff. today had BB, CD and GB.
received my badges and Congrats to getting promoted! xD
great job. :D

then had short publicity meeting and then went home.
went for joanna's 21st b'day partyy with sharon.
took quite a load of pictures. then cut cake and all.
then went to tm. "aunty kat" =.= i am myself la not her. LOL!

just a ventation of my anger.

2008-02-28T19:30:00.002+08:00

`Thursday 28 February o8

today was quite a fun day.
school was alright i guess.
i'm afraid i'll fail poa.
get well soon Goh JR. lol.

no voice still want to hou lian pi.
i tell u ah almost all the guys around me all hou lian pi dde lor.
quotes. on the thick skinned ppl.

me: what's your chinese name?
andre: shuai ge. =.=
me: no seriously.
andre: surname chow. chow suai ge. =.=
me: so thick skiinned. lol.
andre: thanks.

thick skinned right?
hahaa.
then after sch end had teaching lesson.
hahaha lol. oh wells.
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beenreflectingonalotofthingslately.haixthisyearsbeensoemo.imsodisappointedinmyselfandall.beitinstudiescompanyfrensorwadevaiseemtobefailinginall.ifeellikesuchafailurela.idontnoewhoreallyaremyfrensanymoreicantstandanyoneandimlikesosuperemothisyr.ireallyreallydontknowwhattodoanymorethencometofamilyicantcommunicatewellweiththemthenalsolikeicausingsomuchproblemsathomethenialsorealisedthatireallyreallydontfindanyonearealrealfrencometoclassbbqtttimeislikeisolonelylaeveryoneallgotsomeonetotalktoandplaywithandallthenilikesoemoidontknowwhetherisileftoutmyselforitwasjustthetruthsofrustratingthenitcomestosomeofmyfriendscantstandthematalotoftimesbutwadtodoireallydunnowhatotsaanymoreireallyreallywannadisappearlifeislikesotoughla.ifeellikeimdriftingawayfromgodalsoidontknowyit'ssohardto.iknowsufferingteachesmethingsicantlearninanyotherwaybutstillicanthelpbutfellso..so...angryhaixireallywannadisappear.

O.O sec 3 camp's in 4 days! xD

2008-02-27T17:34:00.002+08:00

`Wednesday 27 February o8

morning had AGM. the auditorium so packed la.
hahaaha. lol and it wasn't even the full strength.

then come to errands. wah. i run abt the whole sch la!
haha but fun la. then i miss the GB meeting and the sec 3 one also.
and a lil' bit of camp briefing. but wad the heck.
hahahaha. LOL!

then come maths test. haix. not enough time lor.
i never complete. =.=
aiyo. so sad la. andand sec 3 camp's coming! :D
can't wait. lol.

`Tuesday 26 February o8

i feel so taken advantaged off.
it's like people are using me.
so irritating. haix.
i really dunno wad to know anymore.
haix.

anyway, lessons as usual. then
received back my papers.
results all ain't smthing to be proud of.
then had life saving.

saw wei liang. haha.
then had lesson. haix.
my timing deprove. so irritating!
ARGH!

`Monday 25 February o8

lessons as usual.
then after tt follow sneha got buy FBT.
Jedi me and her ate LJS.
saw matthew ong, Fifi, Rebbecca and nelson.

haha then tt's all. haha
i gtg now. haha BYE!

class bbq.

2008-02-24T15:38:00.002+08:00

`Sunday 24 february o8

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZANE!!!

today was service as usual.
welcome new comers Falice and Hao Peng. :D
god's approval with man.
then did publicity.

gosh. my heart like racing car like tt.
lol.
i think i screwed up but what the heck it's over now
PHEW. lol!
never say goodbye

`Saturday 23 february o8

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WAN ER!!!

CLASS BBQ!
met up with daryl then MRT-ed to pasir ris.
waited for fang yi and jedidah.
suoer long queue at pasir ris la can?
queue from one end of interchange to the other end.

come already then andre, daryl, fang yi, jedidah and me
went to buy the food and then go to felix's house.
wah. felix's house super nice la. pent housed.
lol.

then waited and waited and waited.
daryl felix andre fang yi play mahjong
then me and jedidah went down walk walk.
lol. then after tt, joel, jedidah, samuel and me
went to east point. buy food.

then waited for hui lin and yu ting. then went back.
then bbq begin. food was good. :D
then had cakes and photo taking.
people went swimming and played and all.
then clean up and then we all zoomed home.

i wanna say,
THANKS to wei shen for being our camera man
THANKS to daryl and andre for cooking the food
THANKS to andre's mum for the bee hoon
THANKS to zhi hao for the cakes.
THANKS to the uncle for helping us take pics.
THANKS to felix for the bbq pit and all.
THANKS to zheng liang for the drinks
and THANKS to those who came for the bbq. XD

pics will be uploaded next post.

`Friday 22 february o8

lessons as usual.
then after that.
had GB.
did CIP in primary school.

then after that went back for drill.
then recre. then end.
the challenge. :D
then after tt walked home in the rain.

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only two updates for today.
too lazy to type out liao. hahaha
anyway. i think i've been too emo this year.
but then really what to do if you were me?

what was said really hit me.
sometimes i wish i knew wad people thought.
so many questions no courage to ask.
so many answers wanted but none to trust.

ZHENG YU! MY GIRL!

2008-02-20T19:01:00.002+08:00

`Wednesday 20 february o8

today morning did sec 4 TAF.
aiyo got nightmare yesterday.
O.O LoL!
sorry people today like eat gunpowder like tt.

i finally watch finish the WHOLE SHOW!
hahaha wah. damn nice to watch la. LOL!
lee jun ki and lee dong wook are nice. :DD
but lee jun ki is better hahaha. he fight so cool lor.
hahaha. but in the story he very sad. haix. lol!

oh well tt's all i gotta say. BYE!

Vday. CNY. TDD

2008-02-15T21:23:00.003+08:00

firstly, i know it's late but yea,

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR.

hahahha.

basically, had IT course today.
haha was kinda fun. hahaha.
today's a ROFL day. lol. haha

yeah then also,
HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!
to those who i didn't give, sry but know tt ily! xD
ahahahha. didn't have enough. :X

CNY was fun.
got lotsa pics!
water fights, yu sheng, swimming and cousins madness!
lol. and like many others. hahaha.

omg my sms bill overshot. =.=
haha but had fun sms-ing and all la. hahaha
talked like lotsa nonsense, hahaha.

^ohoh royce dark chocs with alcohol are nice! hahah.
was like super high yesterday. lol. so hyper. haha

then can't wait for sec 3 camp. haha
it's gonna be at st john's island. O.O hahah
so cool. LOL!

birthdays! hahaha

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MING YI! [2 feb]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GRACE! [4 feb]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ELIZABETH! [13 feb]

BYE!

i can't help but think what's really going on.
i feel that like everyone's angry with me.
sometimes i just wanna scream my head off.
life's really a torture at lotsa times.
I'm so disappointed with myself.
haix....
who can be trusted? what's real and what's not?
the speed of life. fast paced changing world.
haix. so much running through my mind.
missing out on so many things but i really don't know
what exactly to do already. i needa getaway.

PICTURES!

2008-02-01T22:20:00.000+08:00

PICTURES! speak a thousand words.
hahaha. ENJOY! :D:D:D
-my artworks. LOL!

PICTURES!!! \/ \/ \/
Romans. the book we're starting on.

My beloved guitars. :D:D

Picture perfect?

Mosaic. LOL!

HOF Captain's Ball Match!

Picture perfect? x2

at heartland mall.

i look toot. (after LS course)

HOF CBM! x2

MetaM! cell outing!

Thanksgiving Picnic!

MetaM CO! x2

Christmas tree! auntie Jac's place. :D

Auntie jac's family made gingerbread men. :DD

Delicious! hahaha. :D:D

Thanksgiving Picnic! x2

Sneha's giant screened Computer. WOW.

so lucky la she got such a big com. LOL!

that's all folks! hahahaha. :P

BYE!

LONG POST. - DIQT, LSC. coms and all.

2008-02-01T17:23:00.000+08:00

HELLO! I know it’s been a long time since I’ve blogged. Ahahaha
Oh wells. Too busy I guess. LOL! There’s just so many things to do lately. Can’t wait for sec 3 camp. Hahah can’t wait for june. Can’t wait for so many things. Hahahahaha. :P

`Friday o1 February 2oo8

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ABRIE!!!
Muscle aches. Ouch. LOL! PE did pull-ups and played handball - basketball. had fun. Then after that. Chapel. Upper sec chapel’s really different. Really really different. The attendance is less than half the church. And really, you can’t feel anything. Haha? Oh well. Let’s just hope that as the days pass, their hearts will be opened and a miracle will be seen. The revival of a school.

`Thursday 31 January o8

Cross country. Walked to bedok reservoir there in the morning with Aliff and Nicole. Ran competitive (first time say. LOL!) – 16th position. [ improved by one place. :D ] Ahahahah. FOLLOW ME. Lol joker ah he, almost always also make me laugh one. Lol. Then after cross country went to sneha’s house. Bubbly. Haha nice dog she has. Ate lunch, then they had photography. Went home. Very tired. Slacked. Sleep.

`Wednesday 3o January o8

Slacked. Went to 1D. LOL! Got a new mole eh? LOL! Heart attack. Hahahahaha. Came home. Haix. So sad. I failed DIQT. Haix. Oh wells. I can always try again next year… but still, to all, GREAT JOB. To Bao Hui, Jolene Tan and Joey, jia you for your DI this sat!

`Tuesday 29 January o8

Lower sec cross country. School’s just boring. Ahahhaa. Lol. There was a whole pile of errands to do. Haha. Walked around the whole school like so long la. Dental! Went into primary sch. Then lol like small kids like that. I have PREFECT teeth. Aahahaha lol. Watched secret. Then after that Life Saving course! :D ahaha. Dr. ABC and LLF. O.O test’s coming real real soon. O.O ahhhh…. Kira! Cool name right? Ahahah is this other guy’s Christian name! he from city harvest dde.

`Monday 28 January o8

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SELENE!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY VINNIE!!!
EMO. Haix. Wad’s wrong with me man. Haix… thanks ms lum. and the rest for the concern. Andre and his “tactics” LOL! I got jacked like 9 over times can? Felt better after chem. Anyway stayed back after sch for maths remedial. Then slacked at the void deck with “gang”. LOL! Will post pics if can next time. Home.

`Sunday 27 January o8

Sherry’s back from OBS. Jas didn’t go church. Na too. New book. Th1nk romans. :D tiny crap session. Ah-haha.

`Saturday 26 January o8

DIQT. 81-ed there. Then was the test. So tired. Didn’t sleep well the night before. Haix. Didn’t do my best. Messed up a lot. Fore-saw I wouldn’t pass. Haix. Tabitha ah Tabitha. Oh well. After DIQT, went to heartland to eat. Yu ying sec GB has interesting shirts. :D no offence meant. Then after that bus-ed back then slept. Super tired can?

`Friday 25 January o8

PE was fun. Played handball. So funny. Ahahaha. First chapel period. Stayed back in sch. Practiced a bit on commanding. And also helped with the board. Picked sister then went home.

`Tuesday 22 January o8

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SZE ERN!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAWN!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY IAN!!!
Photo taking. Hildan Superstar competition. Got lots of ppl. Ended late. Pon-ed LS.

`Monday 21 January o8

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MANDY!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDA ARJUN!!!
Stayed back in sch to practice. Then later did class boards.

`Sunday 20 January o8

No cell group. Captain’s ball match. Will post pics later. Black won. O.O ahahaha. DANO! ANDERS. Dumb la. Now keep calling me tabatha. LOL!

`Saturday 19 January o8

GB meeting. Squad duty. Gardening duty. Ahaha? The garden’s so weed-ful!

`Friday 18 January o8

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NATHAN NGEO!!!
Stayed back after school to do board.

`Thursday 17 January o8

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NICOLE TEO!!!
Sick. Haix. See la. Start of the new year fall sick already. Haix. LOL!

`Wednesday 16 January o8

Helped Pauline with the sashes. Lol then helped with the class board.

`Tuesday 15 January o8

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RANJEETA!!!
LS. Joel sec 4 east spring. Meiyun? 18. :D

`Monday 14 January o8

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALANNA!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MS LUM!!!

`Sunday 13 January o8

EX-CO meeting. Had lunch with Desmond, Pauline, Zing and Gabriel. Hum-BEE land. LOL! Had fun talking to them.

`Saturday 12 January o8

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LI XIAN!
Had GB meeting. Drill stage 3 test + DS2 theory. Took the sec ones for recruits drill.
First time teach drill like that. So scary la. I lack confidence lor. Then after that go Teng Li’s house to practice for hildan superstar.

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The emptiness I feel inside. These never ending obstacles are things I’m supposed to overcome. Sometimes I really wonder. Haiz. Will I ever make it? Who really is? When will it stop? What will I do? Should I should I not? So many questions, so little answers. Life really is unpredictable but you still have to do your best even if it’s your worst. The pace is only at the last man’s best.

i just totally hate my life.

2008-01-12T22:22:00.000+08:00

cca selections!

2008-01-11T22:53:00.000+08:00

`Friday 11 january o8

happy BB day!

today had lessons as usual.
next week have many test...
sian....
then today had pe.

we owe push ups. ahhh....
then after school rushed back home to change
and all. then rush back.
cca selections lah.

cut short.
GREAT JOB GB girls! we've got 16 and tt's good. :D
rest well and drink lotsa water ok?
thanks BB boys for helping us.
have good rest also ok?

today was fine in all. -in a way?
haha.
i'm half deaf and half voice-less.
hahaha?

anyway, i gtg now.
there's gb tmr. so yea.
BYE!
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weird thoughts during pe.
wonder y it keeps popping up.
weird really is weird or is it just my imagination?

one for all and all for one.
we'll win this race 3H as one.
we'll cross the line all for one.
say one for all and all for one.

the better they are the worst it gets.

WoW school offically starts.

2008-01-10T21:01:00.000+08:00

`Thursday 10 January o8

had school.
stayed back after school.
some 1D ppls studying.
then did drill planning.
then go home.

`Wednesday 09 January o8

late day. first one in class.
had to send my sis to sch....
went to 1D. they got locked out again.
haha but it's ok.

stupid fights spoils the world.
will you die if you drink a whole cup of chlorine?
life is so hard. and it sucks.

`Tuesday 08 January o8

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AUDREY WONG!!!

had GB meeting. new teacher in charge?
Ms. Jasmine Choo! welcome to 34th! :D

anyway, had lessons as usual.
then after school. stayed back and helped to paste
the posters. haha
then went home and rushed work and all.

then zoomed off to life saving.
now is 1 1/2 hours.
got to know some ppl.
Joe, fifi, sha and all.

ohoh and i got my manual.
- finally. ahhaa
zhi hao-jia hao is a qualified lifeguard.
O.O didn't know. hahaha.

`Monday 07 January o8

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZHENG LIANG!!!

first official day in class.
haha. my class is too quiet.
O.O i have loads to catch up on.
my brain's lagging.

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under the skin the heart is dead.
under the old lies the rotting.
when all seems well, life seems to go for a spin
and go lower every time.

say no to emo.

2008-01-06T15:13:00.000+08:00

`Sunday 06 January o7

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FAHMI!!!

service in the morning.
chat with zac and jek kai...
shorrt crap session.
then up to service.

special guest holy trinity was there.
Desmond and nelson also.
^ i commit 2008 into your hands.
into your hands i commit again with all i am.

eat breathe and sleep Romans. O.O
haha anyway. tmr's back to sch.
i've got to work harder already.
haha. family dinner later.

haha i like 1D. lol.
they r nice people to talk too. :D
so i'll end here. BYE!

say no to EMO!
resolutions are in action. O.O

sec 1 orientation camp and stock check.

2008-01-05T18:44:00.000+08:00

pass few days didn't blog cause came back late.
(miss 3 whole days of school lor. hahaha)
and was really tired and worn out.
and the headaches were really bad.
but thanks to those for your concern and
yea i think i'm feeling better now. =))

REST WELL EVERYONE, GOOD JOB!
and GET WELL SOON!!!

`Saturday 05 january o7

today had stock check.
went to school early in the morning
clear the GB room.
and packed the things properly.

completed the photoboards and the pub stuff.
left the pub and had lunch. thanks officers for the pizza.
then back to work.
finished at 4.

`Friday 04 january o7

father left for bangkok.
took breakfast. feeling better.

went to school.
did duty then had briefing.
follow 1D go to old school grounds.
fahmi and ms chia went along.
ok lar was -fun- lar.

took lots of photos.
sze ern crapping, kennalyn laughing.
vanessa posing, joel reddening.
ahahhahaha

then went back to sch.
had hildan torch rehersal and cca briefing on sports.
took care of 1D then snacks then exchanged contacts.
blahblahblah.

then hildan torch.
did serving. saw jek kai.
lol. eh hem. ah jek kai.....
ahahhaha. lol.

then walked back with the councillors.
and fgm says she stay in pasir ris. so fake lor...
ok then daryl walked me back.
thanks daryl. xD

anyway, 1D was a fun class to take.
and i'm glad i was 1D facilitatior. :D
and i hope that 1D enjoyed us too. ;D

ended at 10 +

`Thursday 03 january o7

today played team bonding games.
1D cheers the loudest and most united. XDD
go 1D!!!
yay me. lol. okok not me.
but ernest and me ok? lol.

teambonding games today.
i took 1D2.
wah they suan me lor.
but ok lar at least they opened up.
=/...=)...=D...xD

haha. then they had rehersal.
then had more games.
captain's ball!
and 1D won! yay us!
ahahhahahaha.

then they had dinner then talks.
the dreadful headache kept going on and off today.
so painful. haix.
then walked home with ernest, hui xuan, pei jun, rachel and daryl.
and some others.

ended at 9+

`Wednesday 02 january o7

first day of school.
i take class 1D. supposely 45 ppl.
but after the transfer out and in, it's abt 40
pupils now.hahaha

took 1D with Ernest and Hui Xuan.
their form teacher is Ms chia!!! and Ms. lim.
i tell you their class is super quiet lor. hahha
she say drop pin can hear one.

then had physical test for the sec 1s
then break
then debrief then went home.
ended at 6+.

1D - (i say i'll try to remember all your names right?)
Amanda, nicole, tian hui, "sharon" - josehua, clarence, gregory,
daena, wen fu, jon, shikin?, era? cherrie?,en ching, samuel, ming you,
azfar?, jasper, zheng rong?, Ian, adelia, Alvin - "chipmunk", Pei ting, Eunice,
luke, wan bo?, azfar?, siti,
ok the rest i can't really remember now.
headaches coming back. sorry gtg.
BYE.

sometimes i wonder what life will be if....
but other times, i just want it to be as it is.
the irony of it all...

^ thanks? ___ 4 saying i look good in uniform?
and thanks? ___ 4 sayin my smile made ur day?

photos!

2008-01-01T17:09:00.000+08:00

PICTURES!!!!

- cell outing to vivo b4 midnight service.
- thanksgiving picnic.
- family annual christmas dinner!

new year, new beginnings.

2008-01-01T15:52:00.000+08:00

`Tuesday 01 January o8

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DIANA!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JUDITH!!!

today went out for lunch.
blahblah. prepared fro school.
packed my thing.
blahblahblah.

i can't stand my siblings.
it's supposed to be a new year and new beginnings.
but early in the morning, fights are already beginning.

anyway skipp the unhappy things.
today i keep having a throbbing feeling at the back of my head.
it's like u clenching your fist tightly.
so pain. ouch. might be cause of the banging on the wall window grill.
and cupboards. O.O

today had another weird dream.
this time there's Xavier, Sharon, Cheryl,
lam? Jeremiah and some other people.
oh and it's one dream in two diff scenarios.

one part, something like i am legend? infected animals.
then got church people?
having supper or something? then Desmond was selling burgers?
from a bus? and there was fried chickens and all?

then another one is like situated at like OBS? but it's not OBS?
then our youth with some other ppl. were in grps.?
then we had to finish like some quest given to us?
xavier decided to go alone first? or something....

then got like a museum of dead people?
i think to do with Japanese occupation ar?
can't remember already. oh well.

`Monday 31 december o7

went to school early in the morn
to try out the games for the sec 1 orientation camp.
i'm taking 1D with Ernest.
hope i can get along well with them.
cause it's my brother's batch and i don't know if i can....

am i really that responsible? am i that caring?
am i that helpful? am i really that good?

people keep telling me that. but am i really all those?
i really don't know. maybe it's just a lack of confidence,
or maybe it's all just a lie. what really is it?
how am i gonna find out? i don't know. it's just a matter of time.

then 430 supposed to meet metam at tamp int.
but i was late. :X opps.
yea. anyway, we all so moi-qi. ahahhah.
all wear black. haha.

MRT-ed to vivo. crapped alot on the mrt and while walking.
vivo so crowded lor. wah.. ahaha. and the water at the sky park
turn yellow already. yucks. D:
cam-whored quite a bit.

then went to have dinner.
wah. all the food so ex one.
after dinner went to giant.
bought......"wine".

then quickly zoomed back to church.
fetched Jo then we all went in.
just nice some more. ahahhahaha.
then had service.

after service, went outside to
pop the wine. ahhaha.
yea ok so it isn't wine. it's sparkling juice ok?
haha. scammed. lol.
so we quickly drink up all the juice. then went home.

reached home at 1.34am.
wah... anyway i enjoyed myself. xD

`Sunday 30 december o7

family service.
brother wake up only thing he does is the computer.
ended up being late for service because of him.
argh. i seriously can't stand him.

honestly, y can everyone else like get along
so well with their sibling except me?
i don't get it! i try my best, but it's ends up being my worst.
ARGH!

anyway, skip the service.
after service had youth thanksgiving service. =))
had indoor picnic and know thy neighbour.
was relatively fun.

then had fight with brother. yet again.
ARGH!!! i hate him to the core! i hate myself to the core.

BYE!!!
resolutions. O.O
_______________________________________________________

i just realised i'm very anti-social.
so i've gotta change. :D i hope...

sorry people.

2007-12-29T14:44:00.000+08:00

`Saturday 29 december o7

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHARON NG!!!

hey people sorry for yet again another scare yesterday.
i really just feel so sad so down so URGH.
but i'm feeling better now. - i think.
i just feel so sick and pain all over.

i had yet another weird dream last night.
this time it was about wars.
it has no link at all.
and suddenly heroes is injected in.

how weird can it get?
and then i think it was?
i dreamt about death?
who knows.?
ahahahaha

imma gonna go for the st pauls things.
BYE!!!

the story of a lifetime O.O

2007-12-28T13:59:00.000+08:00

`Friday 28 december o7

it yet again the time of the year when the holidays over.
thanks nathan!
saw johan today. ahaha. the BB has started training. O.O
actually quite long already lar... ahahaha.
moses came over today.

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today is just gonna be a story.
something i feel i just have to say out.
i want to scream my freaking lungs out!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i hate my freaking family. i hate my brother, i hate my life. satan is so good. y is he given so much praise? so much face? muahahahah. DOTE rules!

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Sometimes I just wonder who I am.
What was I put on earth for?
Where do I fit in?
Do I even belong?

This is the story of an average girl. Whose actions rendered her the name weird? A name which in fact she just gave herself. You may think she’s all that but think again. You haven’t met the real her. She’s one hell of a girl that you never knew existed. Back in her younger days, her temperament was that of a rhinoceros. Now, it still is, but it is disappearing, poof gone! But somehow, this buried past got dug up, and now it’s empowering DOTE, an alter ego she created 3 years back. Weird is it not? Well, that’s how it is.

Tabitha was born in sunny little Singapore, in the year of 1993. Not long after, a brother and a sister came along. She was the oldest of the pack, and that meant responsibility. The pressure on her was great. The age gap between her brother and her was two years, but their communication gap, a thousand years apart. Not a day passed without a fight being heard. If it was not a fight between her brother and her, it was a fight between her and her parents.

Her parents got so fed up hearing all the complaints and shouts and fights that they gave up on her. “FUCK! Is ther not a day where there’s not a fight!” All that was said of her was that she was just too immature.

As she moved on from primary school into St. Hilda’s Secondary, it was then the change begun. Everything started changing, studies, friends, workloads, responsibilities, EVERYTHING! She just couldn’t grasp things as they were. She started to change. She became more “matured”. She helped people and cared for their welfare. People complimented her that she was kind and very responsible. A typical “guia kia”, therefore leaving her as she was, and taking advantage of her. Whenever she felt hurt, she could find no one to turn to. No friends to share things with, no one to pour out her heart felt sorrows to.

At home, she felt she had no privacy at all. She didn’t have her own room her cupboard could be opened when and whenever people felt like it. And noses had to be poked into everything. She felt that she had no freedom. Her siblings were always more privileged. Better things and all.

Out of school, whenever she was in groups like her cell or just a class outing or chalet or BBQs, she felt very out - very very veer out. When it came to the conversations, she never knew what people were talking about, or she’s just too far away to hear what is said, or she’s just plain left out. To “counter effect” it, she just reflects and taunts herself. If not, she’s on another planet, or just plain stoning.

Every time, fights or quarrels, she would just bottle it up. Sometimes, went the squabbles got out of hand, she would even turn suicidal. She did try suicide, but her attempts all proved futile. All 15 attempts all in vain. Strangling, hanging, jumping off the double Decker bed, suffocating, banging her head… either way, she always came out alive, but with injured limbs or so.

This went on until secondary two, things started to get a little bette - as so so thought.Although the fights continued, the suicide attempts became lesser and lesser. Instead of suicide, she turned to making herself feel pain. Pain was good, it took away some of the hurt. But inside, her heart still hurt the most.

She liked it was she was away at camps. She needn’t face her family and she felt part of something! But the camps were short-lived. Soon it was back to reality.

She hated it. A lot! She just wanted god to take her away take her away from this earth and bring her away. To another place another dimension! To heaven! She never really did like her family, especially her freaking computer addicted brother.

i really really hate my whole entire life. i just wish time would go by faster so fast until it's my death day. i'm always taken as air. i am air. i am nothing to no one. no value no cost no life or death. i really really want to die. life's never fair. everyday's just a battle between DOTE and me. there really no freedom.

pains all around me. suffering born for me. friends a myth. family a long lost treasure.
i'm dying by the second, dead by the minute, rotting by the hour, gone in a day.
the tabitha you see is but a myth nothing but a dying hologram.

long long long post. xmas, cell outing and all.

2007-12-27T21:21:00.000+08:00

okok it's been a week since i've updated.
so this will be a very long post.
longer than usual at least,so read at your own risk.

haha. the week's been busy very busy.
clearing, buying and all. christmas...cell outing....
so now i finally have the time to blog. haha.

here goes. i'll type what i remember.
pictures will be in the next post pk?
haha.

`Thursday 27 december o7

the weird dreams are back! 2 dreams? i think.
ahaha. but will they come true? i don't know.
dreamt about some of the HOF ppl.
and it was way way weird.

then also, dreamt i went to duman high?
for dunno what thing. then got this boy dunno who.....
then we were all like playing some counter strike - like game?
and darren lim was there too?

also got some guy drug addict? or something?
mei yan or smthing can't remember.
as usual can't remember clearly so i'll just end here.

today did bothing but clean up and pack.
lol i packed my bag for next yr already!
ahahhaa. i so kia sue. ahhaha.
tmr's plans are cancelled. haix.
hahah oh well. ;D

`Wednesday 26 december o7

day as usual.
had life saving course.
ahahah. next lessons next year.
grandparents are back from holiday.
went to fetch them.

`Tuesday 25 december o7

christmas service.
pastor George ong is a good speaker.
sad case i didn't buy his books. haha.

gave out my cards.
my hard work ahah.
hope the people liked the gifts/cards.
i made 30 over in total.
haha. lol wanted to make 4 whole youth but then no time.
so oh well. haix.

had the lunch. lunch was nice.
thanks for the gifts guys.
then went home.
watched blades of glory.
it's a sick comedy. haha.

"santa claus" - quote zac and doryy.
ahahahaha. lol.
PS. sorry i woke u up from ur sleep. :X
delivered all the presents. okok not all.
but most of it yea?

thanks zac for coming all the way down here to pass me my present.
btw, i like it thanks! :D
do i look that different? ? ?
haha.

oh and i got a verr cute bear from doryy,
nicenice cards from jo and na, a choc and card from jas,
hand made cookies from sharon and a card and gift from joanna.
and kaili. :D

i'm so very lucky to have such nice cell mates aren't i?
hahahha. :D
oh and did i mention, the seekers cell ALL wore santa hats!
haha so cool. xP

then later in the night,
watched i am legend. O.O
haha. got queue sia.

`Monday 24 december o7

went out with parents to fix my mum's glasses.
counted down t christmas.
then it was like truckloads of messages and msn convos
all the way until 4am. crazy right. haha oh well.
it's christmas wad do ya expect? haha.

`Sunday 23 december o7

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WAYNE!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY AUNTY GLORIA!!!

church service. then CELL OUTING!!!
went to Escape theme park.
the first cell outing where all of us r present!
ahahah. ate at some chinese restraunt at white sands.
then walked to escape.

had super super duper fun there. ahahaha.
but i was way tired. what do u expect from sleeping only at 5 am?
and having to wake up at 8am? oh wellies.
went into the haunted house first.
went in grps. doryy, na, joanna and me
then jas, sharon, jo, cheryl and kai li.
wah jas they all the loudest grp la. ahahhaa

then went to take the water ride.
ahha me and jas. then we all planned to shout metam. and we did haha.
then rainbow and all...

played the inverter. super long queue lar!
actually all the rides queue also very long.
ahahhaha. damn fun.

>> fast foward >>

thanks na's dad fro the ride to the MRT.
then took bus back home with joanna.
went home and then knock out.
haha. of course bathed first and all lar.

thank god it rained only after we played everything.
more details either go to jasmine's or sherry's blog. xD

http://blessingsbeyondthehorizon.blogspot.com
http://where-problems-lie.blogspot.com

`Saturday 22 december o7

christmas party!!! with cousins!
will upload pics next post.
had the annual party.

met up played games.
now it seems like all the girls slimmed down, and all the guys fat!
ahha. opps. :X ahaha. no offence.
and now everyone seems like so MATURE. O.O

ooohh. tt reminds me i gotta get pics from kelly too. haha. :D
got a nice handbag from aunty angeline.
yea. food was de-lish.

played colour games.
was raining so couldn't go down to the playground.
aww... man!
hahaha. then went home after tt.
as aunty jac and aunty gloria and all had to sleep early.

they goiing malaysia the next day. O.o
haha. then saw the orion belt again and the full moon.
so nice. ;D

`Friday 21 december o7

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DARREN LIEW!!!

went to sch to usher the sec 1s for the sec 1 registration.
wear uniform somemore. haha. been so long since i wore it.
ahahaha. me and sherwin wear the "errand girls" for the GO.
u know what?! i saw the uncle louis and family the 1 from redang bay.
i think his son appealing in? dunno lar. and i saw julian too.
this year's sec 1's are so lucky. haix... and my bro's coming to my sch!
ARGH. oh well hope next year goes well.
ahahhaha.

`Thursday 20 december o7

went "shoping" haha.
went to mustafa.
parents insisited lar.
so oh well.

yea basically tt's about it. my super extra long post.
hahahha.

BYE!!!
a prayer a day keeps the devil at bay! :D

i shall post my story as my "resolution"
haha. it's my goal. everything has to move on.

cycling-swimming leg cram.

2007-12-19T22:38:00.000+08:00

`Wednesday 19 december o7

today met Nicole and Hidayah at 11am.
then took bus go TM. they went shopping
until 1215 then go meet kj and Walton they all.
those who went are Kai Jie, Walton, Royston,
Nicole Aw, Shi Hui, Jaslynn, Hidayah and Nicole mui.

then took 31 go east coast.
then ate BK and then cycled.
then slacked a while at the shelter cause rain.
first time i go p that rock thing leh...
hahaha.

watched wake boarding. walked with shi hui, nicole aw and jaslynn.
while the rest cycled. then cycled to jetty.
cam-whored a bit. haha.
then choing-ed back cause overtime already.
haha. =X

then waited for royston they all.
then took taxi home.
lucky reach home in time seh.
ate dinner, then rushed off for life saving.

ok i don't know you, but THANKS!
for your help during the lesson. =))
only 8 students today.
was a good weather today.

oh and i have to say,
NEVER cycle profusely before you swim.
i tell you leg cramp ah!
i couldn't feel my legs half way through lar can?

anyway, saw quite a lot of ppl today.
LoL.
nicole teo, ben hum, the NP ppl and Zing.

to you know who.
Don't Quit. all else all ur hard work will go to waste!
it's just 2 more years. or rather, 1 and a 1/2 more years!
so don't give up! persevere on! y'all can do it!
JIA YOU!!! never give up.

i have to say, god is a never ending god!
i'm so glad he's my god and friend!
he answered my prayer.
god really works in ways u never know! xD

i gtg now.
BYE! xD

^enjoy your remaining holidays! =))

Never Lose Faith.

2007-12-18T19:02:00.000+08:00

`Tuesday 18 December o7

did nothing but slack the whole day.
Rico came over.
recruitment meeting on Thursday.
pray for my mum's knee to heal.
she fell down the stairs.

and pray for me to be able to get along
better with my bro.
there's not a day w/o a fight.

thanks Nicholas for the advice.
i feel much better. :D
sorry Zac, can't go for the musical.
last minute plans.

`Monday 17 December o7

HAPPY BIRTHDAY UNCLE EUGENE!!!

the escape thing was cancelled.
and i forgot to mention. had lunch with cell yesterday also.
i not stupid 2 was playing in the background.
so funny.

and thank you Joanna and kai li for the cards.
it's nice.
and i also forgot to mention, my angel's Jacinta!
thank you for the presents and cards. X))

fights. fights and more fights.
back from camp.
unpacked my things.
that's all for today.

Get contacted, Be Connected!

2007-12-16T19:56:00.000+08:00

`Sunday 16 december o7

Youth Camp 2oo7!
Get contacted, Be connected.

back from camp people!
haha. this will be like my 7th or more camp this year.
O.o so many right? haha oh well.

camp was emotional but nice.
i've learn quite some things from there.
i'm missing camp now already. O.o haha.
always also like tt one.

Day 1
i'll try to type what i remember.
went to church.
i'm in group PURPLE!
- later known as Purposely Purple!
Charmaine (GL), Wilson Li, Glen Goh, Kenneth, Tricia,
Amos, Gorden, Cheryl, Jacinta, Gabriel Wang, Nicholas (DL).
Dave was supposed to be inside too, but he didn't turn up so -yea.

b4 i go on, i have to say, the camp shirt is NICE! =D
designer shirt. :D haha.
Angel and Mortal!
anyway, got into our grps. and had ice breakers.
camp briefing and then lunch.

Missing! haha. went everywhere, just when it was right in front of us.
heh. O.o opps. =X
then outdoor cooking.
we had like a lot a lot of food.
dinner was nice.

sessions. Group time.
sleeping time. slept with the sec 1s.

Day 2
woke up. Quiet time. breakfast.
session 2. Pastor Adrian Low.
then lunch. snap me if you can.
and fun with H2O.

games. went round tampines. taking photos.
thanks Dinie for the money! =))
ok although we completed everything.
it wasn't in order, so we had to do the forfeit.
THE DRINK. O.O

then had water games.
musical chairs. the "teh o"
and the running and snatching.
the fun we had.

bath time, then dinner.
we're always late by 10 mins. haha.
during the 3 session, went up for altar call.
during the whole session it was a battle between
the devil and me. DOTE.

i was controlling my tears and all.
and praying. and praying for help.
then there was altar call, and i just broke down.
it was just tears non-stop.

i could feel god presence.
moving and just moving.
he really touched my heart.
he showed me things i did not know.
the feeling was just undescribeable.

and more than half the camp went up.
god really really works in ways you do not know.
he works in his time and uses people and things all around you.
group time and sleep.

metorite shower. was nice.
the sky was just beautiful.
orion belt. shooting stars and the metorites.

Day 3
woke up quiet time. breakfast.
session 4. lunch then finale session.
holy spirit just pushed me to say something.
then was the prepartions for the bbq and campfire.

Campfire was GREAT!
the singing, the dancing and the eating of our bbq.
i love bananas, i think the mangoes are sweet...
as we walk to the left....

Campice was fun!
the mc's were funny and entertaining.
the skit's were funny.
the revealing of angel and mortals.

then sleeping time.
i tonned the entire night.
with some other people.

and did i mention meteorite showers!
so nice. haha. had nice talks.
then one touch soccer.
quite some time since i've played tt. O.o

Day 4

QT, breakfast.
service.
then closing of camp.
i won best female camper. was shocked. O.O

my group won most photogenic.
haha. wilson was the best male camper.
had testimonies.
i could feel the holy spirit moving throughout the camp.
god really works in ways we do not know.
never lose faith.

my mortal's Nicholas. haha he found tt out just hours b4
the great reaveal. lol.

^i missed two of the DI course practices. aww man!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY HAO LEI!!!
during this camp, i got to know people i never really knew.
it's amazing how god works. he uses people all around u.

RE-CAP! >>>

"den den den den....YELLOW RANGERS!"
"GRREENN GRREEENN....hello?"
"sunKISS orange. muarks.!"
"Joanna jie, qing gun..!"
"Honey...switch off lah..!"
"I'm POPpye!"
"Monkey see, Monkey do..!"
"It's morphing time!"
"I'm HAIRY potter"
"Pinky and the brain!"
"pause,un-pause,pause..."
"i love bananas! i think the mangoes are sweet."

life saving class.

2007-12-12T17:11:00.000+08:00

`Wednesday 12 December o7

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GABRIEL!!!

had nice chat's yesterday. :D
JIA YOU for the cards. =))
^oh and I've received the letter.
thanks =) i didn't laugh ok?
it's nice in a way. haha. xP

woke up way early today.
had yet another weird dream.
this time it's about life saving.
super weird lar. then met a new guy.
made friends with him...Sheryl was in the class too.?
can't remember anything else.

sent grandparents to airport.
ate Han's for breakfast as a farewell.
then zoomed back to tampines.
as mum was late for work.

spent like 2 hours at the airport.
10+ am until. about 12+am.
the whole grp is coming to my sch.
how nice. urrgh. =.="

anyway, the rest of the day.
cleared up-ed the house.
then packed for camp.
in about an hours time i need 2 go for class.
so that's all I've gotta say for now.
BYE!

^i want some freedom!
i'm not a two year old kid!
i know you care, but give me some space!

peer presure.

2007-12-11T15:50:00.000+08:00

`Tuesday 11 december o7

REGRETTING.
if only i could turn back time.
then i wouldn't be so miserable now.
indecisive me had to let this happen.
peer pressure. family pressure. everything.
i woke up lacking of air.

today nothing much.
need to pack my camp bag but too lazy.
camp's in 2 days time.
haix.... so sian already.

so many things to do, so lil' time.
oh well.
grandparents going china tmr.
2 weeks. back after Christmas.

been chatting a lot with zac.O.O
songs and more songs.
hahaha. writing mania.
heh. xP

`Monday 10 December o7

almost whole day at WWW.
i saw jasper! hahaha.
andand met alot of other ppl i know.
anyway, had foam fun.

then went TM.
then come home.
went down to play basketball.
fight broke out. oh well.

i don't like it!
he can be so carefree while i?
i don't like my brother!
ARGH!

`Sunday o9 december o7

pierced my ear.
stayed over at Sheryl's chalet.
had dinner with them.

did worship at JY.
jy camp ended.
sec ones came up to youth.
Sharon screamed. O.O
sprained my wrists.

my bad... opps. :X
st. pauls people also at service.
went home.
saw Daniel and Anders.
i don't like it. suddenly everyone's like so tall.
=.=

`Saturday 08 december o7

Junior Youth camp.
julian has nice hair. haha.
went to T3.
played games. then i left for BBQ.
BBQ the whole week. =.= sian but...

childhood friends! saw Samuel!
his voice break already haha he sounds and talks
like Nathan! hahaha. he's going to st. Andrews. O.O
Amanda just finished her Os.
Sheryl looks DIFF!
haha - makeover. but it's nice.

Shanon - no change.
reached home only at 1am.
woah.

it was fun at JY camp,
but boring. only sec 2 there.
Gabriel's a good guitarist.
Gorden's funny.. haha.

tt's all i've gotta say.
so BYE!!!

^ with GOD, nothing is impossible.
tabitha say NO to EMO.

council bbq~work work work it out!

2007-12-07T16:33:00.000+08:00

`Friday o7 December o7

yesterday BBQ was sorta fun.
did BBQ-ing. =P
haha xD

not a lot of ppl came, but it was sort
of fun none the less.
was held at pasir ris beach.
not so good memories there. but oh well.

went to the pasir ris tower. - night walk.
so fun. but irritating. won't touch much on it.
it is said to be haunted.
imma gonna go back there. OOOooo.
if i don't return i might be dead. lol jkjk.

played truth or dare.
and double dare, had fun although didn't really play.

battle against dote.
EMO.
-------------------------------------------------------------

I'm just a average girl.
in a never ending world.
full of lies and not the truth.
unknown to you but known to me.

people never always care, even though you there.
people aren't always there.
it's only lonely weird you and you.

TODAY.
i have a swollen EYE.
andand i had another weird dream.
this time is was about Selene, lixian, my bro?
and some other unknown people.
can't remember it as usual.
lol what's up with my mind now a days?
they say dreams are just your sub conscious mind at work.
so what exactly am i thinking? but sometimes, mostly,
it's deja vu. so which is which?

oh well.
did my job again. was ok i guess.
saw grace and some volleyballers.
oh and the band members came back from genting today.

doing worship for this Sunday.
it's the Junior youth camp. O.o
haha. anyway,
that's all I've gotta say today...
BYE!

a lonely weird girl.
in a ever dying world.
disappearing in a minute.
far from earth she is.

it's just so hard to find a friend.
who trusts and truly understand.
and won't back stab you.
sometimes I'm just so loss for words to say.
cause my minds in a whirl.

registrar.

2007-12-06T13:54:00.000+08:00

`Thursday o6 December o7

couldn't really sleep the whole night.
but i think i did in the end.
in the wee hours of today.

had even weirder dreams.
what's up with it man!
i dreamt of some kind of monster.
flea-like vampire or something like that.
then it was hectic. and then there was also Charmaine.
and some kid. oh and Vanessa was inside the thing too.

i won't tell u everything cause i can't remember it all - as usual.
i only remember less than half.

blahblahblah then dunno wad.
then me and Charmaine took taxi.
go i can't remember where.
it was to attend a birthday party.
then the parents booked the entire road.
so it was like cordoned offed.
---------------------------------------------------------------

haha anyway. today prepared the things for camp.
aunty Judy, jing jie, Juan chin and me?
old man Jing jie. LOL.
^i was like the receptionist/operator. super funny. lol.
jkjk. finished already, then aunty judy treated us to lunch.
should i go for the prayer meeting tomorrow?

andand really, anyone wants to do life saving with me?
preferably a girl???
ok that's all I've gotta say for now.
might update again later. :P heh.
see how first. BYE!

books of god's unfailing love.
containers of post it.
boxes of undecisive choices.
a world full of never ending lies.

Rain, Rain and more Rain!

2007-12-05T22:12:00.000+08:00

`Wednesday o5 December o7

pitter, patter, pitter pit.
where the sunshine? where's the heat?
here i am stuck at home,
falling asleep in a min-ute!

i had ANOTHER weird dream AGAIN!
twice too.
this time, it's about even weirder stuff.
Jonathan and Nitish were inside.
and so were some of the GB girls. and Zane and other ppl.
there was some buffet like thing on. it's just weird.

then the other one was something to do with swimming.
and some spy thing or something. and there was also something
to do with the rationing or food. -this is all i remember.
talk about WEIRD!

anyway, back to today.
today's just rain, rain and more rain.
so I'm stuck at home - as usual...

morning got up, didn't go running.
wrapped my books.
^imma down for duty tmr - 9am. haha.
and the bbq's tomorrow and I'm not sure if I'll go-now.
indecisive right? - yeayea.

plans for roller balding were cancelled...
-.- so irritating. haix... ahaha.
then, in the afternoon
nic, and rach came up to play.
wet weather still got water fight say....
hehs. :X
my tian water damn cold lar.

then played uno and caram.
watched TV and slacked the whole day.

then i went for my life saving course - even when it's raining.
lucky we did theory. heh.
^ ANYONE wanna do life saving with me? preferably a girl?
my whole class is just guys.

not that i have a problem with them or anything,
but it's that their all strangers.
and life saving usually need pairs so i need a partner...
so yea get what i mean?
so ANYONE wanna join??? tell me?

downpour, rain, drizzle STOP!
yeah! the rain's stopping, stop, stopped!
but it's night time now so I'll have to stop,
cause my brain's stopped too.
LOL. haha random songs random word.
lol. anyway I'll end here.
BYE!

unknown knowledge. O.O

2007-12-04T17:13:00.000+08:00

`Tuesday o4 December o7

unknown knowledge.
weird mindsets and an even weirder girl.
you'd never understand her.
she's just one girl you'll never ever know.

today woke up did usual stuff.
then tried a maths.
my goodness!
i totally forgot how to do maths!
and by maths, i mean simultaneous equations.
it's the holiday's and my brain has shut down.
O.O haha.

then had lunch.
what's up that stare man?!
haha. but i doubt I'll do it.
i can't keep to my promise.
i can't bring myself to ask.....
oh and there's gonna be a council BBQ on Thursday.
I'm going - i think. haha. :P

bought the wrap and came home.
^sorry ppl, can't come with y'all tomorrow.
some other time kae? =)

i just realised that the most common things i say on9
is LoL, icic and haha.
where's the words gone to? rotfl.
what to do? i have nothing better to say.
^the letter has reached it's destination. haha. xD

looks like every one's going on holidays or at camps.
i have 2 camps coming p. can't wait for it.
haha life at home is just too dull.
Rico's at my house now.
they just finished playing basketball.

Nicole's flying off to japan today.
have a safe journey and enjoy your trip! =))
sorry i can't send u off. I'll try and get you on your flight back.
take care! :D

imma gonna go and swim later.
so i think I'll end off here.
bye! xD
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[\edit]
didn't go swimming. went blading instead. Rachel, Nicholas, my sister & me.
omytian. it's been so long since I've roller bladed. i was like AHAhAH.
so noisy right? hahaha. then i fell like 5 times can. so pain. LoL.
i lose to p2 and p4 kids who can blade like pro. haha oh well. and did i tell u
i don't like my blades. the sponge wore off and it bites my skin!
ouch! now my leg has one big cut. -.- so irritating.
anyway. after blading, played jenga. O.o hahaha.
childhood fun times. haha. :DD
[edit/]

sometimes, i just feel right there,
other times it's feels like I'm the wind.
never there, but always present.
helpful in times, destructive at others.

Monday blues.

2007-12-03T20:42:00.000+08:00

`Monday o3 December o7

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAULINE!!!

monday blues. o.0
today woke up...
do chores.. blahblahblah.
then chatted on the phone.
then went to popular go and buy books.
saw zane and sneha there.
bought the planner. =))

saw Jolene,Sherwin and Kelly after tt too.
haha keep seeing so many people.
lol.
than at home, cleared cupboards,
and then down to business.
O.O heh. :X

slacked and then jammed.
life saving in progress. O.O
haha. school's starting soon. -very very soon.

^ ROAD BLOCK!
i need inspirations!

`Sunday o2 December o7

morning crapping sessions. O.O
haha. today was cell evaluation.

20 cent man right sharon???
hahaha.
then after church went home.
then blahblahblah.
tt's all i've gotta say.
BYE! :D

GB Family Day.

2007-12-01T22:47:00.000+08:00

`Saturday o1 december o7

Firstly, i wanna say,
Jonathan, CHEER UP!
ok although i don't know you well and all,
i just want to say, DON'T give up!
perseverance must finish it's work so that you may be complete.
- and not lack anything.
yea sure, life may seem to stop, then drop at times.
but always remember you have friends!
whether u know it or not.
?. ?

last night was hectic.
cousins and siblings "partied" till 230am.
my tian lar can, i couldn't sleep.
then still have to wake up early for GB.
wah.... oh well.

FAMILY DAY.
- zhangde primary.
TeamA.
we won a third prize. yayyyy.....
heh. :X

bus came LATE again.
always also. hahaha.
wanted to buy the planner but canceled again.
in the end just went home and slacked. O.o

basically tt's about it.
so bye!

meeting/ completing of work.

2007-11-30T17:18:00.000+08:00

`Friday 30 november o7

ok today woke up late.
thought I'd be late when i reached sch.
but in the end i wasn't. hahah.
today had decor meeting also.
after completing the publicity things,
helped decor with their work.

had lunch prepared and practiced for the competition tmr.
then left for home.
got home, completed the letter and then sent it!
haha. should get it by Monday i think. =)
:P enjoy the letter!

dad's back from lubuan.
cousins are staying over until Saturday if i ain't wrong.
playful lil' bunch haha.
refused to sleep last night.
blade trinity-ghost rider.
nice- ? heh.

holidays are just so boring.
schools starting soon. - haven't bought my books.
job's gonna start soon - not even sure when!? omytian.
next year's coming!

I've got two camps coming up.
andand next year's gonna be so busy.
taking over of roles in GB.
DI course, NDP?, SYF?, the challenge?, Hilary challenge?.
life saving course?, school. council. and so on.

I've gotta spend my time wisely!
I'll end here. tomorrow's family day!
jia you singers!
it's not the prize, but the process in which you got there!
BYE!
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where's the planner? where's the pen?
i've got to get to work!
stop all your thoughts about other stuff.
cause you know it'll never work.
people never always care even though you're left alone.
but just so you'll stop all these thoughts.
i'll go to that special spot and drown myself.

"NO! STOP! WAIT! don't drown yourself!" he says.
have you forgotten about the people around you?
just know that as long as you have fun and friends,
everything will be alright. so never give up!
but all these things seem hard to hear.
they're like raindrops falling near my ear....

by the time you look for me i'll be drowned!
look for my corpse in the sea. there you'll find me.

weird dreams.

2007-11-29T12:16:00.000+08:00

`Thursday 29 november o7

blogging early in the morning.
unsual right? haha.
anyway i finished typing out the snail mail doc.
haha. Jonathan, maybe it'll reach you b4 next week.
0.O. haahah. :X

chats last night was nice.
- precision drill at istana.
andand it's unusual you hear about a guy who likes to write right?
and it's snail mail i'm talking bout.
shocking?. hahaha. unique i guess. hahaha. bleahx :X

anyway back to today.
i had a weird dream AGAIN!
and this one was weirder than usual.
I'll only state a part - broken pieces. figure it out.
i dreamt i was at Sheryl's house - i think.
can't remember all the details.
then i saw ........
then was like so weird.
then suddenly i was at wild wild wet i think.
running from i don't know what.

super weird the way it was dreamt.
you'd never believe it. it's like a fairytale in water?
or a nightmare in hell? lol.
dunno how u explain. it's just weird.

went to tm with feline.
shopping. so many nice things, so lil' money.
i met hui min and marion there.
andand i saw sherilyn and hidayah.

my cousins are coming over to stay today.
stay until either monday or saturday.
dunno which. cause they've got swimming lessons
at hougang swimming complex on saturday.
not sure if we're gonna send them there and swim too or what.
who knows? haha. oh well.

tomorrow got another meeting.
so anyway. i'll end here.
bye!

^the last Christmas.
how did things come to this step?
i'm not sure either. i just know tt...
-WEIRD.

Sec 1 publicity meeting ans SWIMMING!!!

2007-11-28T22:19:00.000+08:00

`Wednesday 28 november o7

today woke up at 845am.
then i thought i was gonna be late.
then in the end, i was the earliest to reach.
followed by sherwin and then bao hui and jasslyn
and then joey, sze ern and isabel.

we chatted and stuff while waiting for them to come.
then after a while mr bakar come and talk to us. then left...
then we had brunch at macs.
then we go big bookshop go and buy stuff.

so sua ku lar can, ahaha.
then we were like so noisy. hahaha. LoL lar can?
>> childhood memories. hehx. xP
^a batch tee shirt will be a nice idea! lets do it! xD

then we got back to school and started the designing and all.
then had singing session. blahblahblah.
after everything then all decided to go to popular...

>> fowards >>

then i came home. and then go swimming.
today the right weather lor. and not crowded some more.
haha now my are bloodshot red.
haha. too much chlorine already ahhaaha.

then tt's about it for today. =X
hahaha. bye!

^life saver. O.o

boring boring day!

2007-11-27T19:10:00.000+08:00

`Tuesday 27 November o7

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KENNETH!!!

today was just B-O-R-I-N-G.
dad flying off today.
cleared my room and camp bag.

then used the laptop.
i gotta finish watching my three movies.
^I've found a special place where i know i can feel free.

chatted and blogg surf.
then yea tt's about it.
yes i think imma gonna write the song.
things doesn't seem as they are when they are.

tmr gotta go back to sch and do sec 1 pub stuff.
it's a mixture of feelings now.
i don't want next year to come, yet i want it to come!
haha... next's year will be the start of the o lvl course.
i want it to come because,
there's ndp, syf, nco retreat, the Hilary challenge - and outdoor competition,
obs,the challenge- something like resilience trail, and di course.
although I'm not sure if I'll go for them, it all seems nice to me.

oh well, don't worry about tmr cause tmr will worry itself.
haha. ok i'll end here.
sudden inspirations. O.O
haha. :X
bye !

Romans 12:12
" be joyful in hope, patient in affliction and faithful in prayer."

13th Annual Camp!

2007-11-26T20:59:00.000+08:00

`Monday 26 november o7

it's gonna be a long post so at your own risk. O.o
ok I'm finally back from camp.
mosquito over-dose!
schools gonna start real soon.
and i'm getting busy- packed in fact.
two camp's coming up. chalet, family day work.
and preparation for sec one cca selection.

- 5bx [cat and mouse]
- QT. breakfast. area cleaning.
we ended way way early.
- evaluation and photo taking. [went to tt nicenice spot by the jetty! XD]
- de-brief. got cool sovenoir from SCOTLAND!
+ i wanna go for the Hilary thing and the challenge!
+ should i go for di course? it's open to the sec 2's and 3's.
if i wanna go, December will have intensive trainings.
^ next year's gonna be a packed one.
- loading up of equipments.
- back to school. blahblahblah.
- waited for feline, then BALEK KAMPONG! :D

`Sunday 25 november o7

- woke up at same time.
- breakfast duty.
- 5bx [run, "caterpillar" + "squirrel tree"]
- QT. breakfast was good.
- Devotion was good. speaker- Karen, Rebbecca.
- one on one session.
- photo taking with camp chaplains and all.
- lunch.
- extended family. [marshmallows BBQed.] our fire kept dying.
- Recreation was FUN!. lizard family. haha.
[crawling, dog & bone, blow wind blow]
- preparation for special night. bath.
- dinner. [grace did a good job. not too much or too lil' food.standard.]
- area cleaning. good job. no mistakes.
^ deja vu much, i dreamt it the scene and it happened! O.O
- Special night. MC's were enthu. nice attire.games were interactive and fun.
[wand hunt,most amt of halos.,the longest...] skits were entertaining.
- Supper. celebrated birthdays.
- NIGHT WALK!!! super cool lar can. went at about 11pm+. walked on the jetty and all.
very windy. nice scenery. high tide. didn't go to the full thing. reached back about 1230am.

`Saturday 24 november o7

- woke up at 515am
- 5bx. [captain's ball.]
- QT. [something prompted me. it all came out. can't believe it.emo-ness.]
but i think it was so broken. everything felt way way weird after it.
- breakfast.
- Devotion. [patient in affliction.] speaker- Jesse. (caterpillar story)
- First Aid. theory. Ms. Laraine Quek.
- Lunch.
- First Aid test and Practical.
- Recreation. [Treasure Hunt - 3 checkpoints.]
- knot tying. [sheet bend, reef knot, clove...]
- Bath. Dinner. area cleaning.
- surprise surprise. Fire Drill.
- Funtime. ["Lollipop". Honey, will you smile for me?]
- Supper and then sleep.

`Friday 23 november o7

met Nicole at 7-eleven.
then went to sch for Ds2.
had Drill test in the morn.
Practical and Theory.

finished our test then helped the sec ones.
formed contingent and all...
blahblahblah.
then after tt. slacked all the way until bus come.
then load all the stuffs up.

reached the chalet then got spilt into our diff grps.
imma in KINDNESS!
the kind people are.... in no order,
Jolene Tan, Bao Hui, Feline,Jazzlyn, Nicole, Geraldine and me. =))
Ms. Gan is our officer in charge.

- Bath. Dinner.
- Devotion. [Joyful in hope.] speaker - Jeremiah.
- one chance project. [for the kids in Cambodia.] smile in a bottle.
- Supper.
- Lights Off.

happy birthday people!!!

2007-11-23T00:06:00.000+08:00

`Friday 23 November o7

i'll be in sch in about 9 hours time.
so before i leave and forget,
i just wanna say,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RACHEL GOH!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JULIANNE!!!

`Sunday 25 november o7

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JEDIDAH!!!

`Monday 26 november o7

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DORYY!!!

photoboard meeting.

2007-11-22T16:45:00.000+08:00

`Thursday 22 November o7

yesterday was spy day. O.O
haha no lar. play "spy" games with my siblings.
super funny can. i'm so immature. o.O

ok then today had publicity meeting.
sec ones also having drill prac for test tomorrow.

TAKE NOTE!

- Sec two's DS2 test tmr. (10am - 11am i think.)
10am start be in full uniform! will be doing practical first.

- need help to form a contingent for the sec ones drill test.
any volunteers? also, help the sec one's in their drill.

blahblahblah. did photo boards with Courtney, bao hui, jolene, sherwin,
the usual people lar.
ok then. tt's about it for today.
i gotta go pack my camp bag and polish my boots. xD
hahaha. bye!

---------------------------------------------------------------------
3H 2oo8 will consist of this people. (not the whole class yet)
\/ \/ \/ \/ \/ \/

2E'07 - 3 ppl. Elizabeth, Lionel, Jia Jian?

2F'o7 - quite a few. Wei Shen, Vinnie, Javier?, Joseph......

2G'o7 - quite a number. Felix, Liane, Andre, Geraldine, Zhi Hao, Marcus?,
Clara, Joel Ng.....
2H'o7 - quite a few. Ming Yi, Rachel Chen?, Rajakumari, Hui Lin?, Yu Ting,
Hai Jing, Nathan...
2J'o7 - quite a number. Alanna, Sneha, Jedidah, Nicole, Fang Yi, Me, Teng Li,
Nathanael, Daryl, Zheng Liang, Jonathan Yan.

toothpaste-bootlace-pinky winky disaster!!!

2007-11-21T19:14:00.000+08:00

`Thursday 21 November o7

toothpaste-bootlace-PINKy-dwinky disaster!
i have a pink finger and lips! - literally!
----------------------------------------------------------
^date tmr! don't be late! hahaha. jkjk.
pub's meeting again tmr.

last night my siblings wanted to ton the whole night.
they barbarians can? jkjk. play until super rough.
pillow fight, war against "the HIM"
table soccer, dancing.... so on.
^dota is addictive!

so they did ton the night.
but only until 3am.
hahaha. O.o
then today, i woke at like 10+ am.
messaged and talked on the phone.
blahblahblah. heh. xP

my sis woke up at 230++
and my bro, 330+++!
and you know what is the first they do?
sis - TV!
bro, - dota.
my goodness. haiya. hahaha. jkjkjk.
-----------------------------------------------
i briefly know who are all my class mates next year.
3H 2oo8. hope we'll get nice teachers. :P
will type out the names tmr?
that's about all that happened today.
bye!

^drill test's and annual camp's this friday!
ooooooooooooOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOoooo.
heh. can't we still be friends?

3H 2oo8!

2007-11-20T14:56:00.000+08:00

`Tuesday 20 november o7

went to sch with selene.
results are O-U-T. OUT!
mr ng cheat my feelings.
got triple science lor. oh well.
imma in 3H!
so far ok i guess. i hope i have nice classmates.

now ain't the time, but i can't wait till sec 3 camp.
hahahaha. wonder who'll be my classmates and who's my teachers.
o.O

hahha.so funny la cans?
wei jie not wearing sch uni then wanna go in and c results,
then he borrow dunno who's pe attire then run and wear over.
lmao lor. hahaha

ok out that topic now.
ARGH laptop keeps getting disconnected lor.
super irritating!
then then on thursday got date with pub team.
hahaha. =X
and the next day will be ds2 and camp already.
ooooooooooohhhh. hehs. =))

haha that's about it for today.
bye people! xD

^if only things can go back to normal. =))
now playing: y can't we be friends.

Drill Practice!

2007-11-19T20:03:00.000+08:00

`Monday 19 november o7

HAPPY BIRTHDAY EVAN!!!

today had drill prac.
wah. so long never do drill then now rusty liao.
:P heh.

ds2's this friday.
^4 those who didn't come today.
we'll be tested on- i think,
thunder pernanda, butak/tutop, hollmak and belok i think oh and long commands.

annual camps this friday. hope it'll be fun. =))
ok then at home. play the soccer table and teeveeddd.
high school musical 2 keep repeating and repeating so irritating already.

yeah i'm over that "era" now. =)) -- finally. haha.
i'm sorry if i scared you or weirded you out.
i hope it can all go back to normal. ?
i doubt so. oh well. haha.

i'm feeling much much better now.
thanks for the concern people.
really i'm feeling better now. don't worry bout me. =))

bye!
^i gotta go my own way. xP
haahaha.
tomorrow the results will be out.
i just hope i chose the right subjects
and will have nice classmates. ? =))

real FAITH!

2007-11-18T17:06:00.000+08:00

`Sunday 18 november o7

don's our guest speaker.
cell today was like sososo quiet.
right girls? hahaha.
Believing + Doing = real FAITH!

"faith by itself, ir it is not accompanied by action, is dead." James 2:17

- God is Love.
- For grace; through faith; for good works.

50cent man! haha. doryy must come for the youth camp!
holiday's just so BOOORRRRIIIIINNNNNNGGGGGGG!

------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

i feel so emo-grouchy today.
i had a not so nice dream today morning.
and i don't want tt to happen.!
then was a dull afternoon.
TeeVe-ed all the way.
then went out for dinner.
scared by a centipede. kissed by a moth.
what next? killed by DOTE?
muahahaha.

ok forget the evil laughter. it's...
basically that's today.
tomorrow got drill prac!!!
yeeaaaahhhhh. [lam-ness!]
haha jkjk. can't wait for it. i like drill.
and yeah cause i getta step outta my house!
hehaho! O.o LoL.

bye!

^dream-o-topia much. avoidings i guess?
haha? it's said faith w/o action is dead.
i'm trying to believe. by when it comes to the action part,
i can do nothing! waiting is all i'm left to do.
oh well.
- Happy holidays people. =))

ewwwWWWWW!

2007-11-17T23:57:00.000+08:00

`Saturday 17 november o7

omg! i found a centipede in my LUNCH!
i'm so "lucky". ewwwwww...
coffeeshop tau-pau food (wanton stall)
super uber gross can? purple colour also.
and is about the length of my pinky!
ewwwwWWWW!!! totally loss my appetite.
thank god i spotted it b4 it entered my mouth can?!
EWWWWWWWwwww!

~@~ Peace cannot be kept by force. It can only be achieved by understanding. ~@~

today morning had Peace conference.
GBS-GGS. at Fairfield methodist sec.
the talk was boring but meaninful.
i think Miss Makina can speak well.

>> fowards >>

then had break then seminar.
broke into diff grps.
H2o game is confusing- hahaha.

bus came LATE.
so we slacked outside the G.O waiting 4 it.
laughing fits. hahha.
had a bus-van to bring us back to sch.
it was nice. =))
haahahhaa.

slacked at home 4 the rest of the day.
then went out for dinner.
damn funny can.
my dad order frog porridge, then the man only give porridge.
hahaha.
then went to carrefour.

tt's about it for today. =)) i gtg now.
church tmr yea? haha. :D
bye!

^i can't but feel I'm being avoided. haix. oh well.
i expected this. i never get it. should i just give up?

weird dream woah!

2007-11-16T14:42:00.000+08:00

`Friday 16 november o7

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DARYL!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY HABIBAH!!!

firstly i wanna say. thank you jonathan. xD
you really are a nice person to talk to.
and even though i we don't know each other well,
i think u r a very nice leader.
thanks for the help =))
i agree with you. Opportunities will rise, for us to rise!
YEAH! =D

ok then i think i'm on a weird spree!
i keep having weird dreams and blahblahblah.
i wonder what they mean?
who knows. maybe they'll really happen?
if they don't i will be sickly-happy-frustrated!
haha weird eh? xP
hahahahahah. LoL.

^ryl, enjoy your days in malaysia! :D

tmr's the peace conference.
my boots ain't tt shiny yet.
haha hope they can meet the standard.
so long since the uniform has been worn. O.o
hahaha.

btw, anyone up for cycling with me?
i think cycling is fun!! heh.
AHHHHHHHHHH!!!
dumb bro.
i'll end here. it's water fight now!!!
AHHHHHHHHHH!!! haha.

ok this time, i wasn;t drenched!
haha.
went down to play badminton and blade.
ohmytian ohmytian ohmytian!
i accidently sent a message tt wasn't supposed to be sent!
AHHHHHHH!!!

okok. cool down tabitha.
everything will be fine - i hope.
trust in GOD. PRAY.

THANKS sherry.
you're a fun person to talk to. :D

ok i've got peace conference tmr.
so i'll end here. cya ppl. xD
bye!

bad enterances; worst timings.
tabitha the weird one says BYE!
hahaha.

Archiving Day! xD

2007-11-15T18:00:00.000+08:00

`Thursday 15 november o7

ohoh and talk about weird.
i had a dream yesterday and it was about OBS!
haha but it was like in 2008. maybe it'll come true?
maybe i foresaw the future. o.
i won't type it out but if u really wanna know u can ask me. xD
haha. xP

today is met up at 10 am for archiving.
Bao Hui; Jolene; Courtney; Vanessa and me. :D
so many photos i tell you. haha
more then 300. but it brings back memories.
hahaha. LoL.

then we lunched at macs.
saw wen bin again. everytime also.
then went back to sch to do captioning and notice board.
i left at 3.30. promised lar. and bro had no keys.
then at 4 played with joshua and the bros. xh and xx.
played basketball and soccer.
i scored a 3-pointer u know? silent one some more.
hahaha lol. :D c i proved u WRONG. eh!
haha. xP

then king kong so irritating lol.
ok saw my bro and all then at about o515 went home. =))
lil' devils. haha.jkjk.

now. i'm feeling way much better. i musn't let DOTE take over me.
i've gotten my answer. through things i didn't notice b4.
thank you god. thank you my friends. xD

bad enterances; worst timings.

YOU yes YOU!!!

2007-11-14T23:10:00.000+08:00

i never get you.
even if i try, i never understand what you're thinking.
it hurts bad. i can't get it out of my mind.
it always ends up this way.
i'll go into emo mode in the end.
i hate it.
tabitha + emo-ness = DOTE
and i don't want tt to happen.
AHHHHHHH!!!

mum's back from camp but she's out again tmr.
ARGH. naggins and screaming at my bro.
missing house keys! omg.

^must u poke ur nose here? nope!

^i'm bored so i try to blog to waste my time. lols.
must stay outta emo mood.
think of happy thoughts happy thoughts.

haix. who am i kidding?
tabbieee > EMO > DOTE!!!
the weird one.

i tell ppl to be positive when i'm negative.
who am i kidding man?
argh. i'm the weirdest girl eva.
haha.

mini fun fair and water fight!!! =D

2007-11-14T18:22:00.000+08:00

`Wednesday 14 november o7

so in the end yea. i went for fun fair.
had to wake up early = 6+am.
just to wake my sis up and send her to sch.
so irritating lor. then met up with nicole and sherilyn.
half way met xu jie, jek kai, wee sean and jing yi.
wen bin also there u know lol lor.hahaha.
met so many ppl there. o.O

then ar had a hard time finding cheryl.
in the end she was outta sch buying bbtea.
LOL right?
haha. today i kena owned but "small ppl"
haha jkjk. was "bombed/sprayed/shot"
with water guns and all.
got shot like so many times can?
wayne,danish,selecia,daniel,nicholas.... and so on.
blahblahblah.
i'm amazed they still remember my name. ??? O.O

then after tt fetch sis home.
then later went down for water fight. =))
rachel; nicolas; selecia vs me(i'm supposed to be the neutral party!)
then in the end they attack me.
wah 3 vs 1 lor. no fair. haha somemore i no weapon lor.
i drenched until like siao.
but it was fun? haha i'm still a kid u know.
haha LOL. =X

awww. parents r coming back tmr.
there goes then fun. haha jkjk.
anyway tomorrow gotta go back 2 sch for publicity meeting.
sian but ohwell. :D it beats doing nothing at home. xD
it's been such a long time since i've had a good talk with my friends.
eg, elias has changed, more man. haha jkjk.
then got jek kai, more fun to talk to. =X
and so on...

i miss pri 6. i miss OBS. i miss my past!
i wish i could relive my memories. haix..
haha oh well. i'll make do with my present. =/
haha. the change is near? lol.

bad enterances; worst timings.
not a day passes where i'm wishing for my dreams and wishes to come true.
xP - peace conference on sat.
-drill practice on mon. haix =))?

normal boring days.

2007-11-13T22:07:00.000+08:00

`Tuesday 13 november o7

ok days as usual.
i think DOTE is returning.
can't help but feel it rising every second.
AHHHHH!!!!
fate can twist anything anytime.
life is really really unpredictable.
you never know what is happening or wad can happen.

parents are both AWAY yeah!!!
but still got grandparents haiz... haha.
mum's at camp and dad's away on business thingys.
lol. should i gp 4 the funfair tomorrow?
anyway emo-ing is gonna kill me. you won't understand.
the great facade is gonna come off. soon.
i hope i can't wait for it to end i feel so stuffed up.

^hey. thanks for the concern. =))

GB girls, the camp kit is out.
please check your emails.
for those who didn't receive it,
here it is.

CAMP KIT
Check-in : GB Uniform
Time : 1500h

Company T-shirt (compulsory)
Company Skirt (compulsory)
GB T-shirt
T-shirts
Shorts (non-mini) / Bermudas
Pants / jeans
Bath Towel
Sports Shoes
Slippers
Sweater
Toiletries (especially sanitary pads)
Rags
Insect Repellent
Sleeping bag (compulsory)
Plates/Cups/Fork/Spoon
Notebook & Stationery
Torchlight
Pyjamas
Jacket / Sweater
300 ml bottle (compulsory)
Leftover craft materials (compulsory)
Scissors/cutter (compulsory)

NO handphone, pager, Walkman, Discman, PDA,
toys

poor poly ppl. sad. nvm still can enjoy.
jia you ppl you all can do it.
but don't stress yourselves too much over your homeworks.
take it slowly. =D?

yea. so tt's about it for today.
till next time. xP

bad enterances, worst timings.
^i miss OBS. everything is reminding me of it.
awww..... haha but one things for sure,
It's the best camp ever. xD

SORRY<

2007-11-12T20:20:00.000+08:00

`Monday 12 november o7

SORRY ABOUT THE EARLIER POST.
i'm feeling much much better now.
THANK YOU for your concern.

yesterday was just crap plain crap.
don't wanna talk about it.
today did nothing much. cleared up my stuff and all.
read the alchmist is a nice book.
yea tt's all for this post. i shan't talk any more.
bye. =))

fcuk!

2007-11-11T21:45:00.000+08:00

THIS POST WILL BE OFFENDING. I NEED TO VENT MY FRUSTRATIONS.
I'M SORRY IF I HAVE OFFENDED YOU.

I hate this life. This stupid freaking fucking life!!! I want to commit suicide!!! This stupid life sucks!
This stupid fuccmkking me!!1
Fuck yuou!!! Yes I am a stupoid fucking brat stupoi bit I shouldn’t even be alive!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
FUCKCi want to DIE !!! commit suiocide!!! Fuck yioi8[u
I hate my brother!!! I don’t; want tro live ,
‘yes in’m just a stupid bitch I suck! I deserve to be dead!!! I hate this lifeE1!!! I have nok friends I hate my family. Yes I’m like this every yes I like this ecvery fucknig day cannot ar? I hate my sibling I ehate everyone.
Life is never good.[
I hatfet this !!! stupuic= fucking liof,mle/.
I WANT TO COMMIT SUICIDE

Fuck fuck fuck fuck go to hell Tabitha deserves to be in hell she is not fit to bea a fucking human. Asbhe majored in pain a nd sufferings !! this stupid freaking bitch of a human. Die now lar Tabitha. Even every method of suicide tried still won’t die. You are brain dead u should just freaking go to hell!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1
FUCK FCUK FUCKQ!!!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I tyhate this tupid life. Nothing is ever good!! I have no friends, I’m a pain to my family. No one understadnds me I suck o friends nom body unsderstands me I deserve to die!!! Now I just wish I have a guitar and amp and I’ll blast it blast it until the freaking building I’m livin in collapse on me!Q!!!! this stupid freakigng me. I deserve to be out and dead!!! Now I want to scream my freaking lungs out!!! I want to die.!!!Q!
I want ot ride like the wind and scream!!! I want to creasm SCREAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1SCREAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Aaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I hate life!!! I want to commit suicide!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!111
I know all who read this may be offended but this is My b;log my nonsendsed my screaming place!!! I wantto commit suicide. I have tno friends I don’t even want to care about anything else now!!!i want to punch my pillow I want to punch me? Why can’t I do anything right?
I suck tt’s y.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHi wan todie dieie fiksdkjlledkvbwq;kljbfva/m,dbfp;weakf basfd bv;adhvnk fuck uwbd;ovnwdvpoadsvasdvthi life suck tbaitha gwee lee xiang sucks. She hads no friends she can never do anything right. She sucks although she believes in god god is real but he can’t help now. I hate this fucking life. Y must I be born? I MAJORED in pain and sufferingd. I have t no friends no one in the world understands me!!! I want tp die. I want to disappear from the sufface of this earth I suck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
God please juist grant me deth this always happens. I have no one to share my problems to. No fucking person. I know those who know me think I’m a different person. This is me Tabitha gwee me. Life sucks dfor me I only bring pain and sufferings. I hate this world I’m living in. how wish I woild just disspeear.

Soryy to those who are reading my blog. You will feel offeneded. I’m sorry if I offenede you. But I really need to vent all my frustrations!!! Ths stupid frealking life of mine!!!!

council camp!!!

2007-11-10T20:54:00.000+08:00

`Thursday 08 november o7

ok fine. didn't go to ubin in the end,
but spent half the day over at east coast there.
it was like super crowded there can? but it was worth it. =)
orange bikey! xP lols.

wah. i so suay can?
"flew" off my bike lols.

so windy. wake boarding cycling and all.
then went to PP.
mystery.misery.memory.
it's no fair. my sis so young get her hp liao. somemore better then mine.
i'm jealous. lol haha jkjk.

`Friday o9 november o7 - `Saturday 1o november o7

council camp.
yeayea i would like a reunion. count me in!!
i miss mamasans.
Group Apples!
[ Fahmi/Aldrich/Benedict/Julianne/Angy/Anna/Qian Hui/Ying Lin/Carrisa ]
+ [Yun Zhen & Angelina]
amazing race was fun.

wah. everywhere i go will always c OBS shirt and all one lor.
today got obs just finish. okok. enough of tt.
and yea. then back to school.
my group won the most determined. =)
lol. dinner was nice?

ok don't know y, but i felt hyper.
xP anyway, the rest of the night had talks and mini concert.
imma dove. =X ???

>> fowards >>

PT wasn't carried out in the end due to wet weather.
-Yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
[ lol i just realised. Lam is an E away from LAME.]

a cca exchange will be nice.
ok released from camp 2 hours early.
had breakfast-pratas. no PT mar.
then cleared up and all.
then HOME SWEET HOME.

i'm tired but glad that i've endured the camp of non-sleep. =D

^integrity our anchor.
caring our heartbeat.
commitment our resolve.
excellence our pursuit.

dreams.

2007-11-07T13:56:00.000+08:00

`Wednesday o7 November o7

imma gonna go ubin tmr.
anyone wanna join me? lol. jkjk.
holidays are a bored when u've got nothing to do.
imma gotta get a job fast.
I'm dying of boredom.

LOL. ok wadeva just ignore me. xD I'm random.
boohoo. didn't get to play basketball today again.
haix... change of plans and court was wayway full.

oh well. council camp's the day after tomorrow.
can't wait. hope it'll be fun.
26 hours of work. oh my. xP

basketball anyone? cycling anyone?
swimming anyone. fill up my holidays!!!!
^$2/hr. worth it??? =X

- Perseverance prevails when all else fails.
- i wish you enough.
- an unexamined life is one not worth living.
ok tt's about all.
cya!

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sleepless nights.

2007-11-06T15:08:00.000+08:00

`Tuesday o6 november o7

you rendered me sleepless nights.
i just feel so uneasy- nightmares and dreamscapes.

randomic nonsense. who understands?
my holidays just so blah.
council camp's coming up.
times passes fast yet slow.
red apple mint gum is nice!

i've got the sudden craving to write a song.
LoL.
fill my holidays!!! AHHH!!!

sometimes i just feel like i'm the only lonely soul in the world.
no one understands me or what i'm going through.
read my mind and see all the horrors. XP

WEIRD!!!

2007-11-05T19:36:00.000+08:00

`Monday o5 november o7

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LEE QING!!!

unknown to you it's known to me.
i know wad u mean y don't u jus come clean?
go straight to the point.

ok random stuff. holidays boring me.
now it's just smses, com, tee vee, and then more com!
actually wanted to play bb but mum don't allow me go bedok play.
wth lar... sian ji pua...

collected my shirt...blahblah.... rae looks different.
then ...blahblahblah.........
packed my stuffs and my distant aunty came...
blahblahblah. lols. it's such a blah post.
lols. random is random. :P

tt's all. for now.
xD bye!

^i don't know u u don't know me.

^Hey hey i say, let this party started,
heyhey i say don't waiting hey.

Fairytale.

2007-11-04T22:49:00.000+08:00

`Sunday o4 November o7

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANN!!!

today i went to church and then in a flash i was surrounded by BB boys.
scary sia. lols. anyway, doryy didn't come to church today.
her dad and bros sick. GET WELL SOON!

anyway, today's cell was fun, although not the same w/o doryy.
Don's fan club. jun xiang's hand phone, LOL!!!
ok tt's about all I've gotta say bout church.

so anyway, yea tt's about it.
bye! CHEER UP! =))

^ AFFIRM; APPRECIATE; ACCEPT.
*FAIRYTALE or REALITY?

`Saturday o3 November o7

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RENUKA!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY PENELOPE!!!

ok today was a very weird day,
i know I'm weird. but but....
words can't express this. i can't find the right words.
thanks. ?

had CF family meeting?
finally got to c the new principal. their nice people.
childhood memories.

things been changing since.
fairytale or reality?

CLASS CHALET!!!!

2007-11-02T14:30:00.000+08:00

`Friday o2 November o7

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ELEANORE!!!

today so far nth much happened. just smsed and chatted again.
^JIAYOU for you graduation ceremony!
to all out there, enjoy your holidays.
to All the sec 4s, jia you for ur O's
and to the sec 3's jiayou for your SPAs!
toddles! tt's all for today. =))

^one of these days maybe. xD

`Thursday o1 November o7

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NATHANAEL!!!

yesterday was a super long day, long and tiring, but
none the less, still fun!

- met up with ZL at 7.45am
- had to go early and help prepare and buy the stuffs.
- met yan at interchange at abt 8am
- MRT-ed to pasir ris
- Sneha to came at bout 8.15am followed by evange at 8.30am & then jedi at 9.
- slacked at Mac while waiting for them all.
- Me and sneha walked from white sands to the chalet 2 look 4 wen cong, but in the end, he was at home! wasted trip but oh well.
- had our breakfast and then confirmed the number of people coming for the chalet.
- Lols. blahblahblah. then later we walked around white sands...
- then went down to NTUC to buy foods and drinks..
- had our lunch... super ex. */missing text\*

- walked to the chalet.
- rested at downtown cause i needed to bring selene to the place.
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- i was JACKED BAD!!!! aHHH!!!
- the guys play arcade, Mr yeoh's good at daytona!
^ i finally got my year book!!!
- natural driver also mar. lols haha.
- Garden Bungalow 3 is actually very big. o.0
- stuck in the hse taking care of the things with 4 guys. they funny sia.
- soon more ppl came.
- played in the pool and all.
- had BBQ. nice food. thank you mr yeoh!
- event overall was fun but could have more improvements.
- i didn't stay over, went home with ong, sharon, rae and diana.
- in total, i walked more than 6 times from whites sands to aloha Loyang! tiring sia.
- also, we went to red house. wasn't as scary as i expected but oh well. i saw something i think??? O.o o.O O.o o.0

^ thank YOU!!! aww... so sweet! your message cheered me up!!!
thank you loads xD cheers! :D

`Wednesday 31 October o7

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMOS!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY NITISH!!!

HAPPY HALLOWEEN PEOPLE!!! O.O

chatted and smsed the whole day.
then bout 3.40 went down to play basketball.
played with xinxue. woah. there got one junyuan guy i think
play super pro can?
and u know what, although he's short for a sec 3, but he's still a very good player!
he like owned everyone he played with can? including those sec4-JC people.

then played soccer with umirah.
i goalie. very fun. i way long no play soccer liao.
yeah! tmr's the class chalet. hope it will be fun.
gtg. bye!!!

CLASS CHALET DETAILS!!!

2007-10-30T22:30:00.000+08:00

2J'o7 CLASS CHALET !!!

REMEMBER TO TAKE UR LUNCH FIRST!!!

Address: Garden Bungalow 3, Aloha Loyang. (downtown east there)

Time to meet up: 3.00 pm (those who still don't know how to get there please contact tabitha.)

What to Bring? : -YOURSELF!
- Extra set of clothes. you might get wet!
- at least $20? ($10 to pay, $10 just in case u need to flag a cab home.)
- umbrella? just in case u get caught in the rain?
- extra food and/or drinks if u wanna contribute.

the eve of halloween?

2007-10-30T17:54:00.000+08:00

`Tuesday 30 october o7

hello ppl.
know what? so far there's hardly any GB gals gng 4 e youth camp.
awww.....
but i'm sort of having fun these few days.
enjoying life w/o sch. hehe.
but too bad there's limits u know?haix.
andand now after camp, i can't seem to wake up late anymore.
and i don't know if it's a good or bad thing. ( ?. ? )

Announcement. people check your elearn. there is HOMEWORK!!!

i'm so glad i completed the ppt. =))
hope 2J likes it. xD
ok tt's abt it for today.
so cheeros.
enjoy ur holidays people. xD

^it's no fair u know the p6 have sch but they can skip it.
and they don't need a mc or letter to pass to the sch. my bro's
skipped sch 4 two days straight now. =X

Subject choice handing in day.

2007-10-29T21:56:00.000+08:00

`Monday 29 october o7

when to school today morning.
saw selene.nicole,jia jun joel and others.
so long seen i saw my classmates.
5+ days. lols.
anyway, can't wait till class chalet.
hoping things will turn out great.
but i heard a great dealof ppl can't make it.
awwww...

thanks Mr Yeoh for your help.
much appreciated. =))
anyway, aliff took my paper. lols. damn funny.

saw yu en and clarence and diana and dawn.
tried looking for mdm siti, but the D&T staff was closed.
so, wasted. nvm i'm gonna go back tmr.
so i'll try my luck. =P

ok announcement to make!
all 2J-ers look at your emails!!!
refer to ur ppt!!!
if can't access,

CLICK HERE!!! (refer down.)
lols i can't seem to upload it so nvm.
ask me for it if you can't access it.
ok?
ok tt's all for this post.
i off to chat with my new found buddies.
lols. anyway good bye!!!
xD
i miss MAMASANS!!! and BIBI!!!

btw THANKS RAE.
the ppt is nice!!!
thanx for all the edits!
<3 you!!!

Blogging about God.

2007-10-28T21:13:00.000+08:00

`Sunday 28 october o7

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALDRICH!!!

ok i was wrong. Aldrich's b'dae's actually today.
anyway, until now, i still feel like i'm kayaking.
LoL right? haha. anyway OBS was really GREAT!!!

i'm getting used to the wakin up early stuff opps.
OBS impact. =X
today in church we learnt about BLOGGING.
basically, in summary,
-blog like yourself.
-blog like your talking to god.
-blog like god is talking to you.
-and blog like your talking to your friends.

so anyway, morning today was great.
went to JY service. now it's like so nice.
should i go and help out?

after service had lunch at Ramen Ten.
super ex can.
anyway, it's a one time thing so yea.
tt's all for now.

I MISS MAMASAN and BIBI!!!
An unexamined life is not worth living- Socrates

the next days.

2007-10-27T16:22:00.000+08:00

`Saturday 27 october o7

got back my report book yesterday.
yeah i'm promoted to s3 express.
but, i'm not sure what subjects to take.
mr yeoh says i can take double pure. bio and chem.
i'm at a loss. xP
help.

anyway, today had GB outing.
was boring yet funny in a way.
and i'm still dead tired. so many planes flying up and down can?

`Friday 26 october o7

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TENG LI!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRYAN!!!

Anyway just now from 6 + to 9+ went to aliff’s house. Welcome party. Ramizah, bao hui, sharlene, julianne, fahmi, jia jun, Gregory, viki, and a whole lot more of people were there. Dinner was nice. Thirteen ghosts has no head or tail. But it is still some what scary. Later we went down to the park and play rugby. The outward bounders were dancing to the side the side. Anyway I can’t believe their reaction.

lights off people.

OBS!!!!AHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

2007-10-27T16:08:00.000+08:00

1900-112-BIBI or http://www.steven.obs.com.sg/ [huuuuu-wheeeeeet]

Amundsen’s ROSTER.
Fun I/Cs: Sze Ern and Julianne.
Food I/Cs: Ramizah and Michelle. ?
First Aid I/Cs: Grace and Me!
Store I/Cs: Sharlene and Pei Lin.

1st day I/Cs: Jeremy and Bryan.
2nd day I/Cs: Klara and Me.
3rd day I/Cs: Grace and Yu En?
4th day I/Cs: Sze Ern and Sharlene
5th day I/Cs: Wei Liang and Rachel

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Perserverance prevails when all else fails.
The problem may be big but it’s how you chose to react to it.

Amundsen’s CHEER!!!
Who dares to mess with us will be siew mai, who dares to mess with us will be tau gay, who dares to mess with us will chao tai. Ma-mama-mama-ma-mama-ma-mamasan!

some of Amundsen’s RULES.
smile!
give 110% commitment.
LOVE BIBI!!!
with great power comes great responsibilities.
others before self.

Just came back from OBS. It was tough but fun! But reality check, it can’t last forever. However, it was fun while it lasted and I will remember it for life?

On our first day, we gathered in school and waited for the bus to come. Saw don, kai li, jon and some other people. They were in school to give some kind of speech?. The bus arrived and we loaded up and then zoomed off to punggol jetty. Our bus went over a curb leaned over to the right and almost fell down. When we reached there, the jetty was packed with students from different schools and it was drizzling. The boat ride to pulau ubin was very bumpy. We had a nice chaperon with us there too. Her name was Teresa.

Soon enough we reached the island. All 32 of us students were spilt up into 2 groups. Amundsen (mamasan) and Cook. Our instructor is BiBi, and there are 3 boys and 13 girls in our group, and I was the only sec 2 student. The people are, Sze Ern, Felicia, Yu’en, Grace, Pei Lin, Sofia, Ramizah, Sharlene, Michelle, Klara, Julianne, Rachel, Bryan, Jeremy and Wei Liang. The rest were in cook with Faizal as their instructor.

After getting into our different groups, we had a short ice breaker and then unpacked for kayaking. Kayaking was relatively fun! Sofia was my partner. We did capsize drills, power strokes and all those type of things. Soon after, it was time for dinner. We learnt to pitched tents and all. Campcraft is nice. Oh and we challenged ourselves to beat the other groups who came to the campsite way early and were in the midst of pitching up their tents. And you know what? We pitched all four of our tents in less than 10 mins. An accomplishment isn’t it? ^Also, we had one tent with a rotten melted soggy food bar and a pair of socks in it. It stank really badly. In the end we only used 4 tents instead of 5.^

As it was going to rain, we made a small shelter and ate in the rain- campfire dinner. Dinner that night was so memorable. I really felt like we are all the same, and a communication had been made- in other words, the ice had melted. =) We then washed up and sleep. In the end due to wet weather and safety reasons (lightning risks), all the girls slept at block 7. Didn’t sleep well that night. In the end, me and Grace finally got out of bed at about 3.11 am and went to change to long pants and use mosquito repellent. Finally managed to sleep.

SECOND DAY

Woke up at like 5 am to do un-pitch the tents and eat our breakfast. I had like so many mosquito and sand fly bites can? Anyway, know what? We thought we had an extra tent, but in the end, after checking and all, we realized that someone actually packed a groundsheet in instead of the tent. LoL right? Haha. Wonder who is that eh? At 7 am, we met Bibi and we had 5BX. Mixed with our watch buddies Junko and Cook. One Lam clap.

After which, we did the trust falls and stuff. Then we did belaying. We then went up to pitch our tents and then continue with the other high elements. For triple D,my partner was Rachel. We both chose the harder ladder, and know what? We were the first girls to actually complete it, although our timing was 31 mins. At least we completed it right?
Oh and Wei Liang and Jeremy actually did the whole thing in 2 mins. And FYI, the things not easy to climb. Their secret, long legs. LOL.

After all these, we had lunch and then team building time with our watch buddies, Junko and Cook, it was very-super-duper fun! . It was very fun. =) and have I said it yet, Lam is very sarcastic! dinner was nice, we had a nice rest, and I slept peacefully. Poor Bibi fell sick, dehydration’s the cause. BTW, Joel was bitten by a centipede! OUCH!

THIRD DAY

We all woke up at 4 am to un-pitch the tents and eat breakfast and pack the necessary items for the sea expedition (cross island). Was super Fun can? We kayaked through meanders. Sofia was my partner. xD . Great job navigators and all!!! *the navigator was a guy, named Li Xian, and his name is my Chinese name. LOL. But his a nice person. And I saw the guy that acted on Disney channel, that dancer. His name is Alex.
[~@~] Navigators- Li Xian and Jason, Sweepers-Daniel, Aldrich, Royston, and some other girl from Yu Ying sec. Right markers- Alex and some other Yu Ying guy, and left markers are Bryan and Grace. [~@~]

AHHHH!!! So cool I held and touched two different types of jellyfishes!!! So squishy!!!
Anyway, although we were like against wind and tide and sun, we overcame the obstacles and even reached camp 1 earlier than expected. BACKWAVE!!! [ port-left, starboard-right ] We than set up our tents, the ground was all rocks so we couldn’t peg it down. In the end we used stones, and the tent wasn’t exactly stable. And did I say, camp 1, the base camp, facilities are like super nice!!! Then there was dinner, the rice tasted like flour, I think the one that Ramizah cook is way better can? Then there was night walk. It wasn’t scary at all. It was just a straight route and there was still some light from the moon to light the paths. And I want to say, good job, well done people!!!

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FOURTH DAY

-Rate about how you have been doing from the start of camp until now. (I rate 7. could have put in a 110% effort. Like the rules we made said.) Why? (eg, during the pitching of the tents, I slacked, was too fed up with the pitching to continue.)

Breakfast provided at camp 1 is nice. And the tent we slept in is really too rocky. Had slight back aches in the morning. After which, we loaded the bags unto the sandpiper and then prepared the kayaks and then kayaked back. The kayak back was more sunny and tiring than the first time. Oh and while kayaking, I saw a very very big jellyfish. And as a reward, we had jetty jump. Sze Ern was super comical can?

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We pitched our tents, then quickly went and prepared for our land expedition, the hike to the highest point in pulau ubin. We were the only group to finish all the checkpoints and reach the top. The quarry was nice, and the water there is like super clean can? Fresh water you know? Anyway, we had great leaders and pacers that’s why. [~@~] Leaders- Rachel and Wei Liang, pacers- Sofia and Michelle. [~@~] After the hike, we were told to do a task in which we were unable to complete it. On our hike back, we saw a wild boar and its boar kids. So very cute! Anyway, we were told to reflect on all our way back. And then, after reaching the camp, we, Amundsen, had a group talk. It was the first time I really saw a different side of people. The talk was nice. J Dinner was bread and biscuits.

FIFTH DAY

Woke up at 5. Had a nice rest. The weather was just nice and there were hardly any mosquittos. Packed all our stuff and cleared our store. Then we as a whole group, including Bibi, had a talk, a sharing and the giving out of souvenirs/ photos. We then went to buy our OBS shirts, and then, it was back to school.

TELEMATCH!!!

2007-10-19T23:36:00.001+08:00

`Friday 19 october o7

Uniform Groups. TELEMATCH cum CAMPFIRE!!!
went to school at 8+ am.
practiced...

>> fowarding >>

rained. so everything was wet and muddy.
was in team 2. all the ppl all present.

BB = Johan and Wei Chong [darren].
GB = Basia and me.
NP = Joey and Stamford.
CD = Si Min and Germaine?(dunno how to spell.)

overall i enjoyed everything.
however, we did a lot of washing and carrying and cleaning up.
and mud was so not ok. so slippery yucky and slimmy. ughh...
i was mudified and I'm surprised?boys are actually "afraid" of mud too.
oh and i saw Royston and Jeremy in sch.

anyway i really enjoyed myself. campfire was great.
i liked the songs and skits. [we won most profound. lol.]
Wei Liang super spastic/enthu can? lmao.
FROG KING!!! andand NP's skit was funny!
also know what? youth camp gonna have campfire also.
Desmond, Jon, Kai Li and a few others stayed for the campfire.

also, i wanna say, GREAT JOB EVERYONE!!!
everything was great but improvements could be done.
last but not least, i hope everyone enjoyed themselves.?

i'm dead tired but glad i attened this event.
i do hope there are more to come. oh and
HAPPY ANNIVERSARY MUM AND DAD!!!

^narrating was fun yet scary! GAKU-GEKU-POING! haha.

telematch's tommorrow yeah!

2007-10-18T15:01:00.000+08:00

`Thursday 18 october o7

Ok. verification of results.

i passed ALL. except for D&T.

wahhh... there goes the ALL.

haha... LoL. I'm just crapping.

today had like so many talks can.

3/4 of today was spent in the hall.

it's was like so warm and stuffy in the hall can?

i was hyper ventilating. ok tt's an under statement.

*(i just felt like saying it. lol.)

anyway, I'm a confirm for OBS

but i some how feel very weird. *(way way freaky)

LoL. ok. tomorrow's TELEMATCH!!!

hope we can win it. :D

and woah. we have like 5 forms to hand in tmr too.

and it's all about the activities lined up for us.

wth. a lot leh.i think my holiday's gonna be way way packed can?

but ohwells. tt's what u get when your a brigader?

ok then, tt's about all for now.

cheeros. =))

^the one who succeeds is the one who says "I CAN".

Great day? COTT

2007-10-17T22:16:00.000+08:00

`Wednesday 17 october o7

ok. now all my results are out.
i'm happy with it although it's all boarder lined.
still i passed all right? =) i thank God for that.
today i got voted councillor of the term and month.
was shocked but the results. and felt super weird can?
but yeah? thx to all those who voted for me?
anyways, there's gonna be a food/toy drive tomorrow.
i think i might help out.

andand finally, the class photos are out. OUT out.
yeah man!! haha... LoL.
DEP, Mrs Sui go record Seng Whye's presentation.
i think his presentation was GOOD.

~@~ ~@~ ~@~

*try drawing this. (according 2 e 10 little Indian boys tune.)

one circle, one circle, one BIG circle,
one circle one circle one BIG circle
one circle one circle one BIG circle,
W,W, E.

~@~ ~@~ ~@~

after school stayed back again.
i like the SKIT.
GREAT JOB PRODUCERS/DIRECTORS and ACTORS!
i'm sure our hard work/effort will pay off.

i'm at a lost. should i take triple science or double?
Mr. yeoh say i can survive in triple science.
H.E.L.P. which subject combination should i choose next yr!?
JIU MING AHHH!!!
pieces of a parcel fits perfectly if you have the patientence.

RESULTS BACK!!!!

2007-10-16T22:01:00.000+08:00

`Tuesday 16 october o7

firstly,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MR WESLEY WEE!!!

ok. now, got our results back today.
I'm just glad i passed all so far...
anyway, for the rest, don't get depressed.
you tried your best. don't fret too much ok?
you've still got your mid years and all that.
so CHEER UP!!!

today rehearse for skit.
Vanessa is the bomb man.
lol. she's damn funny can?
anyway the skit's so comedy-like.
GREAT JOB director's/producers.
and actors too.

i do hope the telematch will turn out wonderful.
anyway, I've got to go now.
bye!

^ job vacancies anyone? recommend please.
much thanks!! =))

today's today!

2007-10-15T19:55:00.000+08:00

`Monday 15 october o7

day's as usual.
imma in the skit?
for telematch.
results will be out tommorrow.
imma verry scared i'll fail can?
ok so tt's like all for the post.
i've something to say.
finefine. this goes to doryy.
Xavier's the dumb one ok? haha....
LoL. imagine the reaction if he sees this.
anyway that's all for now.
bye!!!

^things happen when you least expect it.

holiday's nearing!!!

2007-10-14T15:52:00.000+08:00

ok i know I'm really consistent.
I'll try to post frequently ok?

STONE + FISH = STONEFISH!!!

`Sunday 14 october o7

Quote -
Xavier: " don't you think it's hot?"
All of us: "okok lar..."
Xavier: "well, I'm HOT. "

haha... LoL.
service today.
^Ming jie: right? right. right.
haha but his devotion was nice.
he really is one touched by the spirit.
found out tt Alvan has the same b'day as me.
wow. now tt's three.

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY ALVAN!!!

`Saturday 13 october o7

went to gym with Nicole.
damn packed can?
after tt lunched at coffee shop.
"KingKong's"-we still don't know what's his name,
is quite a nice person? and nic says he should gym more.
LoL.

after tt went to Discovery Centre with My Family and Rico.
went SHOOTING!!! YEAH! SAR 21.
i killed 17ppl, 18 hits.
more then my bro and Rico.
amazing right, when their supposed to be better then me.
LoL. but my dad the best. 31 kills out of 40 rounds.
woah. then went around the place.
watched Everest, and sharks, 3D.

`Friday 12 october o7

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JANELLE!!!

had graduation ceremony.
VIP usher and i think i screwed up much.
know what? in 2o1o, prime will end and there will be a
- open air football field at the 3rd lvl of e sch.
- the current sch hall will become the library and staff room.
- there will be a indoor auditorium?
- current Field will become a gym? and court?
- etc. etc. but i didn't get to see the pics.
haix... and also, Don looks so chubby!

the Seniors did a nice dance, mr tay didn't dance as b4,
at e rehearsal. and wow. he sure perspires a lot.
had buffet lunch. all directions.
andand there was like so much leftover can?
overall today was fun. kinda enjoyed myself.
oh well. can't wait till my graduation.

`Thursday 11 october o7

had graduation ceremony rehearsal.
after rehearsal, went to Gongshan primary to promote our sch.
went with Sharlene, Aliff, Eliza, and mr chiang.
there got verr wide variety of cca can?
ohoh andand, there was this boy keep waving to me
and saying hello. weird right? yea.
then went to the AVA room to give presentation.
aliff looks uber scary when he forces a smile.
ughhh....
after tt went back to sch and then we helped the uncles and aunties.
arrange the tables for the ceremony.
disaster man. LoL.

`Wednesday 1o october o7

no paper. no school!!!
went to giant and bought my stuff for OBS.
woah. there got so many colours of fbt can?
ohoh andand imma gonna get a job for the holidays.
not sure what, but will get one- if can tt is.

unknown to all.

EXAMSS OVERRR!!!

2007-10-09T12:49:00.000+08:00

`Tuesday o9 october o7

HAPPY BIRTHDAY XU JIE!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAI LI!!!

EXAMS are offically OVER!!!
thanks liyana and diana for tt bag.
and all the other b'day wishes and gifts, belated or non belated.
<3 y'all.

anyway, i think i might fail my maths paper 1.
it was just so randomly done.
^i think gerome looks alot like Jonathan can?

`Monday o8 october o7

Chinese paper 2.
i suck at chinese.
days was nothing much.
life's a drag at many times.
haix.......

`Sunday o7 october o7

Kai Li frenzy.. she's hyper over 9oct.
lol. anyway, went early.
slacked with doryy, sherry and jas.
xavier came. he looked super out of shape.
RELAX A BIT AND SLEEP.
doryy did worship.

trials comes from God, and temptations, the devil.
Satan's way of enticing you.
#1 - Desire. it's already in you and works it's way out.
#2 - Deception. it deceives you into thinking it's right.
#3 - Disobedience. you do it. it leads to sin.
#4 - Death. you r spiritually dead.
~@~ ~@~ ~@~
to overcome temptation,
1. have Fellowship with other christians.
2. Get into the Word of God.

`Saturday o6 october o7

Rico came over to my house.
played basketball with siblings and rico.
saw ryl and xiao bai.
then had a match.
jasper and boon bin(i think tis is his name?) vs us four.
both of them are pro can?
^their faces are familiar. where have i seen them b4?

had family reunion.
compassvale.
was sort of fun.
don't give up. i'm sure she'll like you?

double days.

2007-10-05T13:48:00.000+08:00

`Friday o5 october o7

i'm craving to play basketball. LOL.
anyway, science exam today was quite ok.
walked home with ZL, and doryy. =)
stopped over at 7 eleven. and ZL headed home.
he's suddenly so quiet lol.
then slacked for a while under the block.
thx doryy. a usual had to send sis to sch...
haix... i feel weird. shine on.

UPCOMPING EVENTS I CAN'T WAIT FOR.
-OBS
-Class chalet!
-Youth camp!
-basketball game.
-Ben's and Jerry?
-inter UG telematch/campfire.
-exams results to be out.
-HOLIDAYS!!!!!!!!

`Thursday o4 october o7

half the class 3J was gone. LOL.
thanks you Nicole and Liyana and Diana.
the gift was niceee....=)
Literature. i wrote way more than what i expected.
WOW.
sometimes you fall before you fly.
haha... lol. THANK YOU SHI FU!!!
LOL.

HAPPYY BIRTHDAY MOSES!!!

MY BIRTTTHHHHDAAAAYYYY!!!

2007-10-03T19:57:00.000+08:00

`Wednesday o3 october o7

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SENG WHYE!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY AUNTY LYDIA!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ME!!!

today was Geography papers.
i might fail geog i think.
tommorrow's Lit paper.
and we have science remedial too.

>> foward >>

yea. i may not be the only sec 2 going to OBS.
it's the exams, but i forgot my own b'day.
LOL.

PS. thanks Eleanore, Jia Jun, Evangeline, Jedidah,
Darren, Doryy, SENG WHYE, Fang Yi, Audrey,
Ranjeeta, Yan Lin, Liyana, Jing Wen, Amanda Long,
Nicole, and all those i have missed out.

tabitha. =)

it's the eve of the birthday. =))

2007-10-02T11:19:00.000+08:00

yea. imma here to post. =))
let's go down in accordance.
go GREEN...

`Tuesday o2 October o7

lol. i actually forgot. exam stress.
lol.
today had no duty. class was empty.
Maths paper 2 was hard...
not even sure if I'll pass.
i randomly did most-almost all the Qns.
walked home with doryy. =)
saw Mr. Marcus.

Esther says she can't make it for OBS,
haix... imma the only sec 2?
except 4 royston, but he's consider a sec 3.
haix...

`Monday o1 October o7

HAPPY CHILDREN'S DAY!!!
today had history paper and MT paper 1
i think i might fail my MT paper 1 lor....
anyway, history was okok...
finished just on the dot. =)

`Sunday 3o September o7

Family service.
JY lead worship. was good. =)
after service went for lunch at simei.
Koybayashi han... somthing smthing.
food there was nice.
doryy couldn't join us. haix...
the dancers were nice!
oh & tt guy sure can sing.

`Saturday 29 September o7

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JASMINE!!!
went to Downtown.
SMOU family connection/children's day
celebration you see.
people there were ALL younger than me.
wah... super paiseh can?
my dad sent me up to answer a Qn which i didn't know.
-.-" i stand up there like some kinda retard.
cigarette smell there was overwhelming.
but dinner was nice.
ok not really me, but i saw an waiter tt was total.
eyecandy. LOL.

quotes: speaker: "opposite words ok? (for the kids)"
speaker: "DYCAN (pronounced die-can)"
kid: "CAN DIE!"
speaker: "CAN DIE? CAN DIE? y u wanna die!?:
ROFLMAO can?

`Friday 28 September o7

had a run for PE.
floorball was fun. though we didn't score,
we lasted long enough. =))
poor Daryl had "fun" sliding in the water.
lol.
chinese LC today. next week exams liao...
haix...imma super cramming can?

`Thursday 27 September o7

amazing how you can communicate with the environment?
i think i heard God's voice today.
i was supposed to be studying, but i fell asleep.
in my mind i was like god please let me rest but
wake me when it's time.
no one else was anywhere near me.
then i heard the pitter patter of the rain.
his voice was in the rain.
and the alarm he used to wake me was the thunder.
it was a slight hushed voice.
amazing right? i know.
and imma glad it happened to me. =))

LATERN FESTIVAL!!!

2007-09-26T16:44:00.000+08:00

late posting yea i know.
i'll type out wat i remember.

`Saturday 15 september o7

had GB as usual.
saw the NP ppl.
no fair they sec 2 already sergeant.
haix... ours i a long way to go.

`Sunday 16 september o7

cell group.
went early was fun right ppl?
haha lol.
i said something wrong =X
hope xavier didn't hear it.
i have to learn not to be indecisive.

`Monday 17 september o7

Mr yeaoh showed us some digustin' pics.
but their science so... wat the heck.
art have to do 8/6 entries....
haix....

`Tuesday 18 september o7

LITerature- i think our presentation
ain't good. but none the less,
i still liked our song. =))
lifeskills watched an abortion video.
is gross can?

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DYLAN!!!

`Wednesday 19 september o7

met selene and walked to sch together.
the boys so bored tt they play soccer in class can?

imma going for OBS yea!!!
i feel sort of guilty though.

`Thursday 20 september o7

got burnt by hot scalding oil.
made tuna fillet for Homec.
last chapel.
i'm actually voted councillor of the month.
was so shocked can?

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MR TAN!!!

`Friday 21 september o7

played floorball for PE.
again saw some pics.
can't believe tt the girls scream so loud over such pics?
ok can but wadeva.

Lit. i think lee qings grp is fun-nie...
LOL.
had a 1/2 hr chat with dory.
wen cong get well soon.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WEN CONG!!!

`Saturday 22 september o7

GB as usual.
first aid course no more.
brought foward to next year.
have GB project. must remember to do kaes?
fetched my sis from dance then zoomed home.
today sucked big time.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HUI MIN!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMANDA ONG!!!

`Sunday 23 september o7

went early again.
YEAH! imma done with my crosses!!!

i thin don is a very talented singer.
i'm saying the rest are good singers too!
anyway keep up the good job! =))
LOVE UNFAILING

i think pastor fuman is right.
our mouths are most vile.
anyways how much do u owe now ar wei liang?
LOL.

`Monday 24 september o7

english EOY papers.
AHHH! i think i screwed up for my paper 1 can?
AHHHHH!

`Tuesday 25 september o7

brought guitar for singpiration.
joel looks nice when he wears contacts?
and he lost his talking partners... aw....
anyway i was kinda shocked when asked....
but yea thx anyway. (:

eng ms chia not here. marcus took over.
assignment was to go library find s'pore book.
i read this super thick book on positive thinking can.
but it was relavant. assembly was storm.
had maths remedial.

at night had latern festival.
went to "celebrate" with Xin Xue, nic and his aunt and uncle.
the aunt and uncle left then we play with fire.
so sad. lol. xx wanted to explode the lighter but then nic mum come.
LOL can?
then we went for a walk together.
saw the volleyballers- guys and clare.
after walk, played basketball with joshua and Xin Xue.
nicole didn't want to play.
^thx for the concern??? some other time bah...

`Wednesday 26 september o7

went to sch with selene again.
guys again playing soccer in class.
had another short chat with doryy.
DEP wah scary.
had fun and some of their scripts are really good! =))

went all around to find mrs oh but couldn't find her. -.-"
anyway slacked for eng again.?
had history remedial.
lol. sorta had fun lots there.

ok this will be my last post till after EOYs.
till next time. xD

^can't wait till after the EOYs.
got OBS and got basketball meetings. YEAH!
LOVE UNFAILING. =))

from 5 sept until 14 sep.

2007-09-14T14:33:00.000+08:00

i know. i'm in consistent in bloggin
but nvm. lol. imma lame i know.
i'll type what i remember ok?

`Wednesday o5 september o7

went to raffles medical with nic.
sick lar... then rest of the day slack.

`Thursday o6 september o7

had maths remedial at 1o30 but
went earlier to accompany liyana.
she reached there at 0900 can?
* Nathan thx. ( you know what.?)

yea. maths remedial...boring but at least got revise lar.
then had lunch with rae, abrie, nicole...
but no space so me and sneha sat at another table.

DEP.
listened to the diff types of music.
then had a short reading session.
end of school.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DARREN!!!

`Friday o7 september o7

went to cut my hair and bought things
from market.
it's uber short now.

`Saturday o8 september o7

had GB meeting in the morn.
i've got one more week left.
my hair's a total mess.
meeting very slack.
only got one officer.

>> foward >>

went to davis guitar shop
to send for repair amplifier.
nice deals they've got there.
then old-bused to suntec.

zommed to aunty lisa's place.
the party was fun.
i really enjoy quaility time with my cousins.
watched transformers again.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AGONG!!!

`Sunday o9 september o7

church service as usual.
and it rocked!
saw dory after service.
NP ppl just came back from ATC.
someone's b'dae comin right jas?

HAPPY BIRTHDAY EMMA!!!

`Monday 1o september o7

back to school.
can't really remember what happened.
so what the heck.

`Tuesday 11 september o7

I"M NOT JEMIMA(however it is spelt. =X)!!!

CHEER UP MR chris. WEE!
had a relief cher. mr goh i think.
pray for mr. wee to cheer up.
he was very close to his late grandmother.

chinese lesson suppose to go auditorium but in use
so both classes squessed into 2H.
today was such an embarassment.

`Wednesday 12 september o7

late day.
missed TAF.
mr. kwok's back.

Chinese lesson in auditorium.
so cool can? practically and literally.
DEP read my script i think it's bad.

>> fowarded >>

had history remedial.
i think some of the cartoons are nice.
thanks ms Choo for the snake?

`Thursday 13 September o7

such an embarrassment.
singpiration didn't even prac.
and then asked to play guitar. so pai seh can?
poor dawn her pencil cases' missing.

i think somethings wrong with me.
or rather DOTE is trying to be set free....
i can't stand it!
and sorry for those who i may have ignored?

had chapel.
saw Kai Li(chiobu) haha...
surprisingly those naughty boys came.
but they ain't all bad.
saw them twice some more
after school also see.

`Friday 14 September o7

played floor ball.
enjoyed myself.
a lot of ppl says I've slimmed down. and tt my haircut's nice?
it is true? oh well?.

Chinese lesson again squeezed? in 2H.
i can't draw braces-{ }.
ARRGGGHHH.
Ben Lee came to take Mr Wee's class.

had to photocopy $19.45 worth of compre paper.
a lot right?
thx Selene for the ride back home.
now I've got to go and try to study.
amazing or not?
i have not starting studying my other subjects. except sci.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIN YOU!!!

ok that's all for now.
gotta "SPAM"
bye.

^sometimesireallyhatelifewhoreallyrmyfriends?
reallysometimesiwantgodtotakeawaymylifonthespot.
ithinki'mlikedriftingawayfromtheworld.lagginbehind.
inallways.noonetotellmyprobstonowantocommunicatewith.
lifereallysucksifyoureme.canyounamesomethingimgoodat?
iguessnotcauseimmatalentlessandhavenofriends.
ireallywishttfatheryoudgivemesomeoneicanrelateto.
helpireallywantodie.sometimesit'sbetteroffbeingdead.
ppliusedtocallfriendsrturningintobackstabbers,b****es.
icanteventalktomyfamily.ppljustignoremeandimthebuttoftheirjokes.

`monday o3 September o7 to `Tuesday o4 September o7

2007-09-04T17:26:00.000+08:00

`Monday o3 September o7

was out from 2pm to 11pm.
watched two movies.
watched Ratatoulie with
>evange; jedi; lene: Rae!!!!
review: funny nice movie.
on the way saw wei liang; liyana and xu jie.

then had dinner with
> XX; XH; aunty siew ming & her hubby and nic.
then walked around while waitin' for the movie,
movie started, their friend shaan.
what's up with the weird looks?
*i'm still shocked by their reply.

THANK YOU aunty siew ming. =)

`Tuesday o4 September o7

went to doc accompany nic.
teaching my sis to play piano.
lol. it's hard to cope with studies when
it's the holidays. haha.

that's all. =))

HAPPY BIRTHDAY XIN XUE!!!

super long post?

2007-09-02T14:36:00.000+08:00

okok update here.
i know i know bout half a month since i last posted right?
I've been busy so yea.
I'll type what i remember.

`Saturday 18 August o7

Nicole's b'day
had a celebration for her.
saw many ppl i recognise @ TM

`Monday 2o August o7

Chinese oral.
didn't go very well.
i messed up big time. :(

`Friday 31 August o7

I've been staying back the pass
few days to complete the teacher's day gifts.
tough work but WE pulled through. =)
thanks for all the help. =))

Teacher's Day-
i missed most of the concert. :(
oh well. wat's done can't be undone.
*Sze Ern and Wei Liang. Thanks for everything.
i know both of u r verry busy but try and relax a lil' kae?
any problems or need help come to me kae? if i can help u I'll help. =))
don't OVER-STRESS yourselves.

CLASSSS PARTTTYYY!!!
although i have to say i missed half or it,
still it was FUUUUUNNNNNNN!!!!
all the cake and stuff. 2J rocks!!!

went back to Primary school.
so many teacher's have left.
i saw chee yan and jek kai....
and many many many other people. =)
memories, good fun memories.

`Saturday o1 September o7

finally did my punishment.
ANGEEEE don't leave please. we'll miss you. :(
Yan Lin is STRONG!
yea. welcome Geraldine into REBEKAHHHH!!
-gb MIGHT i say MIGHT shut down soon. :(
haix... i might not really like gb tt much but it's my cca
so please pray very very hard that 34th GB s'pore
will have ENOUGH recruits to keep the company going yea?
the teacher's day gift were nice and i do hope the teacher's loved it.
physical badge retest next week. tea for two, we'll be there!

things ain't going well for me and me.
haix...

`Sunday o2 September o7

had cell in the morning.
new system.
we're now on the book of James.
by Rick warren.
i felt you speak to me and my heart moved.
THANK YOU SO VERRY MUCH. :)
WHEN I AM WEAK, THEN I AM STRONG.

tips:
HOW TO PROFIT FROM YOUR PROBLEM.
four facts of life you need to know.
^PROBLEMS ARE INEVITABLE.
^PROBLEMS ARE UNPREDICTABLE.
^PROBLEMS ARE VARIABLE.
^PROBLEMS ARE PURPOSEFUL.

I'm unpredictable.
no one understands me other than you.
teach me to learn to help others and
fill my heart with your words.
my heart is most vulnerable unless you are in it.
help me. teach me. use me.

`HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO

-Nicole, Carol [18 August]
-Basia [23 August]
-Xavier [24 August]
-Feline [25 August]
-Esther [1 September]
andand HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY to all teachers!!!

that's all for now. till the next post.
bye.

<>

wadeva i remember

2007-08-15T15:48:00.000+08:00

point formed post - one week+
short and sweet?

`Wednesday o8 August o7

- assembly.
- funfair
- played basketball.

`Thursday o9 August o7

^ HAPPY BIRTHDAY S'PORE; NATIONAL DAY
^ HAPPY BIRTHDAY WEI JIE!!!
^ upcoming camp. 10-12 august.
^ packed bag. slacked.

`Friday 1o August o7

> 10am. Miss Lee's dad creamation./ funeral
> lol. the bus driver got lost.
> ended at around 2.30.
> same campsite. group SAUCE; dorm 1
> Sze Ern, the leader. Basia, my trainer. Feline, Joey, Jolene and me!
> slept late-3am

`Saturday 11 August o7

~ inside jokes all around.
~ GB meeting.
~ telematch
~ special night
~ shocked.

`Sunday 12 August o7

_ FIRE DRILLLL!!!
_ inside LMAO story.
_ photo takings.
_ home sweet home.
_ UPCOMMING CAMPFIRE-TELEMATCH!!!

`Monday 13 August o7

+ back to school.
+ ATP resumed.
+ bubble tea-ed.

`Tuesday 14 August o7

=( mood- down in the blues.
the storm in my mind rained tears out of my head.
=( not a good day.
=( sorry people.
=( thank you all for your concern.
=( thansk ms lum.
=) felt better.
=) stayed back to learn proper roll call commands

`Wednesday 15 August o7

/\ sorry.
\/ thanks for your concern people. :) much appreciated. xD
/\ lessons as usual.
\/ upcoming cell group. worship. :)
/\ http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ch-z5s2JabY
\/ watch it ^
/\ tt's all then bye!! xD
\/ PS nathan got a HP- finally right?

FOP

2007-08-07T14:58:00.000+08:00

blogger ate my post.
oh well.
will start from the last thing i remember.
FESTIVAL OF PRAISE!!!!

`Saturday 04 August o7

morning had GB.
i did roll call again. and i messed up a hentak.
haix... SORRY girls.
thank god Renuka and Angelina came. :)

>> Fowarded >>

had lunch with Sze Ern, Tricia, Nic, Yan lin and Joey..
funfunfun.... bought very very cute stickers. ( lol. at this age )
picked my sis, then zoomed back home.

-FOP-
Met Selene, and walked to small mac.
Darren, Jia Jun, Yong Jie were already there.
-inside story -

after the Almost Whole Grp here le we all go to the MRT Station there,
there was Darren, Jia Jun, Yong Jie, Selene, Teng Li, Alanna & Sherwin.
took all the way to Aljunied can?then take bus(158)

when we passed the Forbidden Place,we saw so many wat u called them,ChickenS??????
lol. so many lor?!
so many Comments about them.
>> the bus telling us->"You Are Now Entering ******* so be prepared" HAHA right?
then JJ tell me his experience bout the Stop that he dropped off
cos he fell asleep in the bus. just imagine dropping off in Geylang At 9p.m EWWWW. right?
ughh...

reached there, had to reserve like 24 seats 4 the rest,
saw a lot of ppl i noe.
SERVICE STARTS.
full house i tell you.

>> foward >>

FOP rocked!!!
i like the way Phil Pringle gives the sermon.
Delirious? is so COOL!
andand Don Moen's songs really has so much meaning!
had Dinner at 12+ with lene, nicole, lee qing, jordan, daryl, abrie, xuan ting, emily,JJ, Teng Li
YJ said he saw Ms.munirah.... - inside story-
THANKS BELOVED TENG LI FOR THE LIFT!!!! xD

i had fun guys,
thanks for going. xD
{ Abrie,Xuan ting, Emily, JJ, YJ,ren,Sherwin,Nicole,Lee Qing,lene,Alanna,Teng li,Sharon and her friend}

`Sunday o5 August o7

late for church. =X
i'm sick.
GET WELL SOON ANDREW!!!

`Monday o6 August o7

WELCOME BACK SALLY!!!
andand WELCOME TO 2J!!! xD
school as usual.
i've gotta try.
no ATP.
went to Big bookshop with Rae.
we had fun didn't we?
saw ms. munirah and her BF?
-story to be told if asked.-
GREAT JOB BENJAMIN!

`Tuesday o7 August o7

lessons as usual.
failed my lit.
Geog lesson today was fun.
i got a nice puzzle-key-chain.
chinese lesson too?

pupil led assembly.
great job sec 1 emcee's(howeva u spell it)
CHEER UP DUDE!!!

helpi'mdyingidon'tevennoewhoexactlyicancountonanymorenoonetoturnto.
it'shardtoexplainthingsttshappeningnow.familiesprobsocialprobeverywereosogotprob
helllllpppptheresnoonewhounderstandsmenotone.haix.....

really a WEEKS post.

2007-07-31T15:37:00.001+08:00

23 and 24 july

2007-07-24T21:51:00.000+08:00

`Monday 23 July o7

met selene, and aliff(he spilled coffee all over his notes =X)
walked to school together.
lessons as usual.

had a GB meeting after school.
haha.
- inside story -

`Tuesday 24 Jul7 o7

unexpected turn of events!
due to GOD's grace and mercy and help,
GB got 3rd place!! can't believe it right?
it's true.! :) all smiles, all smiles....

- dudu ar...
- congrats ms lum, u got your prayer answered.
- miss nur didn't come today....got mr. ng in place.
- mr yeoh also not here. got mr. kuek.
- lit's fun when mr. wee's around.
- cheer up duude!
- chill down leney,
- GET WELL SOON ALL OF YOU!!!
- TAKE CARE OF YOUR HEALTH!!!

ok i have to go now.
there a GM tommorrow.
Festival Of Praise {FOP}
who wanna go?

---------------------------------
loads of work on my hands.
days approaching not caring when.
when will i ever breathe again?
without the help from your hand?
you are my refuge in times of need.
i'll worship you at your feet.
you are my god, lord and savior,
you'll be there always, no matter what.